FireWater - Like its subject matter, FireWater is an incendiary, seductive, powerful and provocative cocktail of a project from early 2009. While the focus is on the photography, there is an equally-compelling narrative of first-person drinking accounts that lends an added element of confession to the proceedings. (PDF)

The Circus Project - The underside of a season in the circus is loosely plotted in this project from Spring 2008. What if you don�t fit in anywhere, even in a circle of misfits? What does that do to a person? The search for a place where you belong, and the journey of an outsider trying to find himself is pondered here, but it�s the photography that takes center ring, with a stunning collection of visuals featuring wildly disparate scenes of dead animals, vagrant hobos, pirates, farms, rural landscapes, and a colorful ring-leader.

Solace & Solitude - A subdued mix of poetry-like passages mingled with photographs of winter scenes from 2007. Originally presented as a hand-made square book form composed of wooden covers and jute binding, it�s layout and presentation are preserved here. (PDF)

The Revelation - December 2006 - The first work of fiction from Alan Ilagan in almost a decade, THE REVELATION tells the tale of an altar boy and his incendiary relationship with a visiting clergyman, the results of which are glorious and devastating. A tender but brutal coming-of-age novella, touching on the precarious bonds of family, the delicate ties of friendship, and the uncertain freedom of desire. (PDF)

Alan in Wonderland - Get on board the Bi-Polar Express as Alan Bennett Ilagan presents his Divine Diva Tour: A Fairy's Tale. Back on the road with his fifth tour, and promoting Version 3.0 of his popular web-site, Ilagan is poised on the verge of another artistic triumph. But in the eye of the impending hurricane, all is not as calm as it should be.

Shades of Gray - October 2004 - An autobiographical collection of musings and reflections, in brief haiku-like entries. The closest our author has come to poetry, and a reminder of what made him so special in the first place.

The Tantalizing Trickster - Spring 2003 � A promotional project for The Talented Trickster Tour: Reflections of a Floating World, this was released in mid 2003. A collection of images inspired by Laura Argiri�s The God in Flight, it incorporates quotes from that book as well as photography shot on location in upstate New York and Ogunquit, Maine.

Words of A Gardener ~ February 2001 - A collection of writing on Ilagan's passion for gardening, going back to his childhood.

A Man of Mode - September 2000 - In which our writer recounts some of the most important events of his life ~ his ill-fated move to Chicago, a devastating break-up with his boyfriend, a series of one-night-stands, excessive episodes of alcohol abuse and unsafe sex, and the redeeming power of self-acceptance and love. Readers are also introduced to his current partner, Andrew Van Wagenen.

Of Heart and Home - August 1999 -Regarding the tortured history of our writer's relationship with his family, a growing reliance on alcohol, and the start of his most serious romantic relationship to date.

The Fall - September 1998 - In which our writer documents the tumultuous Summer of 1998, wherein he deals with the traumas of drug and alcohol abuse, the death of a dear friend's father, and a new relationship.