Author Archives: Alan Ilagan

Blue Evening and Moon

A song for a blue night, when the moon winks at you from behind a bank of clouds. In this glorious spring section when the danger of frost has mostly passed, when we can finally relax a little when it comes to the lingering question of whether winter might reach back and clobber us once more. I think we can let that guard down for another year. Let us find resolution in this lovely little song.

Spring nights can make for the most magical nights, when the wind is right and the moon is light. All promise rests on the hope of a warm breeze – it is the promise of summer, peeking around these clouds like the moon

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The Prepopulated Post

There is safety and protection in the way I’ve designed this blog to work. Pre-populated and scheduled posts allow me to do a week’s worth of blog posts in a few hours, then simply hit-and-run on my social media outlets when they go live. It gives the appearance of constant and consistent self-promotion, of an ongoing presence, even when I’m not here. More importantly, it lends distance to my posts, and distance lends enchantment

Distance also gives a rosier outlook when I don’t feel like writing, when I don’t feel like doing anything. That gives this place a slightly skewed slant, try as might to be brutally honest, a skewed view that gleams and sparkles when my soul doesn’t feel like shining. So you won’t always know when I’m actually hurting, or when I’m actually bothered, or when I’m actually feeling anything. It’s safer for the soul that way, and that’s why I make it look easy

That’s also why I respect those of you who do it all without complaint, why I honor your work, and your willingness to take it all on in silent and stoic fashion. 

Think of the swan, gliding so gracefully upon the water, and then think of all the movement that goes on beneath the surface. Swans must be ferocious and fierce to feign such fabulousness

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Shades of Summer on the Horizon

More hints of a quiet summer to come, this is a color that looks to feature prominently, and I’ve already given away too much so that will be all I can say on it other than listen to Lana, listen to Laufey, eat your macarons, and watch ‘Marie Antoinette‘. It’s not that deep, it’s not that serious, and that’s the way summer should be

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Poised on the Precipice of Taking Flight

The latest trailer is out for the first of the ‘Wicked’ movies, and it further establishes the potential of what this could be. This one brings out a bit more of Galinda’s performance, and while I’m not the biggest Ariana Grande fan, she seems to be impressively slipping into the pink witch’s magic. 

“The real thing about evil,” said the Witch at the doorway, “isn’t any of what you said. You figure out one side of it – the human side, say – and the eternal side goes into shadow. Or vice versa. It’s like the old saw: What does a dragon in its shell look like? Well no one can ever tell, for as soon as you break the shell to see, the dragon is no longer in its shell. The real disaster of this inquiry is that it is the nature of evil to be secret.” ~ Gregory Maguire

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Dazzler of the Day: Helen Zia

“No one is truly equal and free until everyone is equal and free.” ~ Helen Zia

This Dazzler of the Day crowning feels like a superfluous and almost frivolous honor compared to the work that Helen Zia has done for her entire life. Activist, journalist, and freedom-warrior, Zia has dedicated her life to advancing justice for Asian Americans and LGBTQ+ community members, and all the various intersectional spaces where marginalized people exist. It’s a war she has waged since the 1980’s, and sadly needs to continue now more than ever. Check out her website here for further evidence of her brilliance.

“There are many lessons to be learned from refugees and migrants that can contribute to the understanding needed to navigate the global tectonics to bring people together, not drive them into flight.” ~ Helen Zia

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A Most Fragrant Duet

This is probably the most exquisitely-perfumed week in the garden, as the lilac trees and lily-of-the-valley plants are in full, fragrant bloom, crossing the sweetly-scented height of their potency – each carrying on the slightest of breezes, and each glorious in their singular way. For Mother’s Day, we sent a bouquet of each with Mom to bring home (more on that fun weekend to come). In the meantime, both of these flowers conjure happy memories of springs long gone but never forgotten

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Ferning Up

This appears to be a day of green, as we follow the green light of Gatsby with this ferny post exemplifying the splendor of the Ostrich Fern. It is the best time to appreciate the unfurling fronds of this fern variety, as they are at their freshest and most chartreuse hue. They will happily retain much of this color throughout the season, though if it’s a hot and sunny one without ample water these will begin their burn-out in late July. The trick is to keep them watered well for as long as possible, as you can stave off the turn, but you cannot stop it once it begins. As in so many other instances prevention is key. 

Along with their stunning shade of green, ostrich ferns also provide great architectural interest in the garden, with their magnificent fronds, particular in the early unfurling stages. Once opened up, they arch gracefully – surprisingly stalwart in wind and rain – though they will get tattered if brushed by branches or wayward wanderers in their space. Such beauty doesn’t come without a bit of carefulness. 

For now, all is freshness and verdant promise – the very best qualities of any fern worth such ample space in the garden (and the ostrich ferns will demand a decent stretch of space and then completely claim it, particularly if there’s a steady source of water). 

Spring is in full effect, even if it’s been a bit on the slow side. Summer will likely simply click on without any transitory relief and we will simply have to go with the flow. You know you can do it.

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Dazzler of the Day: Harry Sisson

With his crazy-popular TikTok account (and tributary social media accounts), Harry Sisson is one of the next generations most vocal supporter for democracy – and at a time when our country very much teeters on its own destruction should the GOP come into full power, voices like Harry’s will be necessary to see us through these turbulent times. He earns this Dazzler of the Day for his relentless speaking of truth, and encouragement to keep our democracy working. 

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Theater Review: ‘The Great Gatsby’ at the Broadway Theatre – May 11, 2024

Full, unhappy disclosure (with spoilers ahead): I am one of those annoying F. Scott Fitzgerald purists who prefers their Gatsby writ large and wildly unbound within the immortal words and pages of the writer. That will always taint how I view any adaptation, and I acknowledge it now as a factual part of my enjoyment of the musical version currently playing at the Broadway Theatre. That said, I’ve always welcomed any and all versions of the work, ready and perhaps too willing to embrace whatever interpretation any number of creators have attempted to employ over the years, including an original Broadway musical, whose over-the-top format might have been the jolt of drama that the novel has demanded, and all-too-often damned. 

Starring Jeremy Jordan as Jay Gatsby and Eva Noblezada as Daisy Buchanan (understudy Kayla Pecchioni admirably performed in that tricky role on the evening I saw it), ‘The Great Gatsby’ arrives with much-ballyhooed hype and one of the most outwardly-lush productions of excess, which is one of its strong points. Mirroring the sparkling decadence of the novel, the atmosphere and backdrop is a striking combination of stage wizardry, employing a spectacular hybrid of set pieces and projections that work in seamless tandem to capture the epic scope and expanse of the novel. Capturing this superficial world is like capturing the green light – it looms forever elusive. 

This production seems to take more of its inspiration from the Bad Luhrmann movie version than the actual novel itself – something the modern-audience might be clamoring for, and my old, stodgy, stickler ways simply may not appreciate. As such it is at least two interpretations away from the source material, and it feels like that sacrifices some of the novel’s magic. 

As Gatsby, Jeremy Jordan brings down the rafters with his soaring voice, and certainly has the wit and beguile to justify assuming the mythical role, yet through either the direction or his full-on embrace of Gatsby’s more charming qualities, Jordan seems to project a knowing wink to the audience, who largely eat it up (judging by their rapturous reaction to his mere presence on stage). The problem is that Gatsby would never give a knowing wink to the world – only perhaps to Daisy, or possibly Nick – an important distinction that tends to plague any and every theatrical adaptation of the book due to its seeming impossibility of expression – it’s too small and quiet for something as demanding as a Broadway theater. And despite the fact that Jordan is given a couple of grandiose solos that are performed alone on stage, one never gets the feeling that this character is in any way lonely – another hallmark that Fitzgerald masterfully merely hinted at, and which ran deep into the dark heart of the novel.

By the time this Gatsby, decked out in his military uniform, steps into a choreographed production number that thrills the audience with Jordan tap-dancing his way into musical theater heaven, the mystery of the character has largely fallen by the wayside, while the magic of the performers and the tradition of Broadway pizazz steps up to center stage. If you’re willing to give in to that, and let go of the wish for something as beautifully dark and gorgeously hopeless as the book so thrillingly conveys, this Gatsby may be enough for you. The singular talent of powerhouse Jordan (who has been deserving of a worthy star vehicle since ‘Newsies’ and the pre-Broadway run of ‘Finding Neverland’) and a supremely adroit cast firing on all cylinders (stand-outs including Samantha Pauly as Jordan Baker and Eric Anderson as a bespectacled Wolfsheim) might be the modern-day Gatsby the world deserves. 

Visually, the evening is a sumptuous feast; musically, it provides a typical Broadway score, taking the necessary cues from its 1920’s inspiration, then adding in the requisite bombastic ballads and second act reprises. Taken as a whole, it’s almost enough to approximate the magic of Fitzgerald’s prose, but ‘almost’ and ‘approximate’ will never quite fully capture Gatsby’s glory. If you clamor for the ache and the dimmer underside that only the wondrous cadence of Fitzgerald’s marvelously ambiguous evocations could elicit, then you may find fault with the empty liberties being taken on stage, no matter how much they may dazzle. 

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Swimming Beneath the Cherry Blossoms

Following my own foolish pontification is not something I usually do. It’s fine to fill this space with empty words when I’m looking for filler, and my friends who know my voice know when my heart’s not in it. Just kidding – my friends don’t even visit this place, and if they do they certainly don’t admit it. There would be too much guilt associated with such displeasure. I’m digressing… which happens more often the older I get. A concern upon many concerns. 

Back to the pool, which Andy had heated as an early treat, to capture one of those elusive sunny days that dared to climb into the 70’s and flirt with the 80’s. Every day counts when summer can be so fleeting. Andy had already been in once, and after a few days of him encouraging me to take the first dip of the season, I gave in – because when you have a chance to swim beneath a blooming cherry tree, you should always do it – especially if the day is beautiful. 

So in I went, after a day of work and worry, wading into the water for the first time this season, in quiet and unheralded fashion, the way the months have passed since last summer, the way they will pass through this summer. Some years are quiet like that.

PS – The featured GIF is not the product of any filter or special effects – it’s the magical reflection of the sun bouncing off the pool water and lending its traveling, mottled light to the cherry blossoms. 

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A Mother of All Recaps

The post title here may be slightly misleading, as it’s not so much about boffo-content than it is about it falling the day after Mother’s Day. So let the let-down ensue – it’s what we do best! On the bright side, there is this featured pic of fun at Proctor’s with Mom, Suzie and Andy – on the night we saw ‘Six’ (a must-see). And now, on with the weekly recap, as getting this past rollercoaster of a week over is probably the best for all involved.

Jim Verraros released a follow-up to his international smash ‘Take My Bow’, tantalizingly entitled ‘Pyramid’

The Met Gala had a very promising and inspirational theme, but the participants and their outfits fell slightly flat (and maybe I’m just bitter for never having been invited). 

We celebrated an unremarkably remarkable 14th wedding anniversary a little early in Boston. Fourteen years into married life, and almost twenty-four together, there is still joy and surprises to be found. 

Remember me when the lilacs bloom.

A cherry blooming evening.

When a non-weeping cherry tree weeps.

A pool of pink petals.

Evolving into the Carnal Flower. 

Happy Mother’s Day.

Ladies & Gentlemen & All Those Who Have Yet to Make Up Their Mind: Presenting Lilacs

Another hint of pink.

Dazzlers of the Day included Gleb Savchenko and Grace Jones.

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Another Pink Hint

“They evoke our interests and affections, and keep the life of the spirit dawdling around them. Then they withdraw. When physical passion is involved, there is a definite name for such behavior – flirting – and if carried far enough, it is punishable by law. But no law – not public opinion, even – punishes those who coquette with friendship, though the dull ache that they inflict, the sense of misdirected effort and exhaustion, may be as intolerable. Was she one of these?
– E.M. Forster

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Ladies & Gentlemen: Lilacs

The lilac that Andy’s Mom had gifted us almost a quarter of a century ago is once again in bloom, along with all of its descendants in three different areas of the yard. So prolific has its growth been that we’ve had to cut it back as it attempted to take over an entire corner of lawn in the backyard. In the process, I transplanted several suckers over the years, each of which has developed into a sizable shrub. 

This hybridized version – all fancy double blooms adding to the florificence (a word I just totally made up but that should totally exist) – is like a supercharged lilac – packing perhaps even more fragrance than the old-fashioned variety. There are all those extra flower petals to emit even more perfume. Blessings upon blessings. 

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Happy Mother’s Day 2024

This Mother’s Day marks our first without Dad, and it finds my Mom and me in New York, resuming our Broadway tradition in bittersweet style. I was sort of dreading the day when we would be able to do this again, because that would mean Dad had gone. Attempting to accept that, we return to the city as my gift to her for Mother’s Day, and we find joy in the little things, the way Dad would want us to go on. 

For all of my life, she has been the family member who has kept us all together, expanding our ranks to include Andy, the twins, Jaxon, and Landrie, and forming the stable core around which all our lives revolve. That’s not always easy – and Moms probably have the toughest job in the world – but she has done it with love and care, and our family is intact today because of her. 

Happy Mother’s Day, Mom – thank you for all that you do. Here’s hoping you have a wonderful day – and a better year ahead. I love you. ~ A. 

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