Tiny Telephone Sessions: New/Old Work by Karel Barnoski

A recording from 2018 already feels like it’s from another lifetime ago, and a world far, far away, but the music from Karel Barnoski’s ‘Tiny Telephone Sessions’ has aged like a fine wine, its themes and musical motifs growing more resonant as we try to hold on to the joy we once found in art and music and the creation of something that shows us how we live when we are in the throes of it all. Originally released on vinyl, Barnoski is re-releasing it digitally at long last – check it out here on Spotify

Rushing along like a stream in the aftermath of winter, ‘I’m on My Way’ cascades down while beginning its aural ascent on the opening track. The idea of water accompanies my thoughts as I listen to this music – perhaps inspired by the photos I’ve seen of Karel’s fishing trips, or his recent painting endeavors which shimmer with watery movement. 

This was where he was before the world shut down, and this collection of songs is a reflection of a place that may no longer exist, in the same way a section of a stream is different from moment to moment. (It also illuminates the transfixing beginnings of themes he would go on to further explore in 2020’s resplendent ‘Welcome Home’.)

While the moving ‘Dad’s Song’ evokes contemplative musing in the still and slow moments between its rolling arpeggios, ‘Kathryn’s Waltz’ is full of pretty hopes and hopeful wishes, a whimsical dance fit for dandelion seeds on the wind. That wind shifts a bit, and there is a dark and mysterious undercurrent running through ‘In Between’, but every time it seems ripe for a bit of brooding, the melody turns and the pace changes. This ebb and flow pushes and pulls within the space of sound, contracting and releasing as if acting as some beating heart debating whether to survive by consistency or adventure ~ the ultimate crux of the in-between. 

Another gem in three-quarter time, ‘Lola’s Waltz’ makes its turns in fanciful form tinged with the slightest touches of melancholy, approaching the precious but veering just shy of the cloying with a masterful restraint from indulgence. Further confounding this sweetness, the exhilarating ‘Polish Dance’ is a fun romp that starts off at a gallop and ends in an absolute mad dash. ‘Spanish March’ begins where one might expect, then quickly takes a detour – a river that bends and throws curve after curve until you’re certain it’s doubled in on itself and there’s only space for splashing and silliness. 

With ‘Move That’ the album shifts from its classical leanings on the grand piano into something more casual and loose, finding Barnoski swinging along on an upright piano, electric keyboard and organ. The split makes more sense when you realize that ‘Tiny Telephone Sessions’ was first released as a two-sided vinyl record. This second side, nostalgic both for its initial vinyl inception and its ragtime-roots, shouldn’t work as well as it does, but Barnoski’s skill at bringing a bit of grace and elegance to the songs here, coupled with his skills as pianist, ultimately creates a work of cohesive unity. 

The sugary-funk of the bluesy ‘Banana Split’ is pure fun – the first notion of release and abandon, while ‘Coming For You’ and ‘Barrelhouse Rag’ descend into even bluer territory, the sound river growing a little more rollicking ~ the stuff of rafts and raw energy, enervating and driving, the way water doesn’t want to stop in its run. ‘In the Trunk’ hops along gently, reminding of another stream, another fishing expedition, another interesting journey back through a childhood memory. 

Finishing things off with ‘Lowell Street’, we seem to tilt out of the water and right into the nightlife of some magical city that’s as gritty and grimy as it is fascinating and filled with the flotsam and jetsam of inspiration. Seeds that carry on the wind again. Music that moves along like water, in all its varying forms and moody incarnations. In an all-too-brisk half hour the world of ‘Tiny Telephone Sessions’ has come and gone – a world we all once inhabited, brought to life again in the way only an old favorite tune can wheedle out faded memories as it’s played on a piano in a darkened room that now feels empty, and all the more beautiful for it. 

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The Rusty Cape

“You are a ghost. Filled with stardust, wearing the bones as the shield and the skin as the cape. Fighting every day and opening up for the new wounds in the hustle of hiding the old scars.” ~ Akshay Vasu

At various points, we are all called to be superheroes. It usually doesn’t come in the form of crime-fighting or cape-wearing glory, bur rather in the smaller heroic acts that constitute being a good person. The older I get, the more conflicted I feel about whether it’s easier to be good or bad. There are so many ways where being good and doing the right thing is more difficult, uncomfortable and trying than taking an easier way out. And then there are times when I realize how much more work it is to be bad – to be the perceived villain, to go out of your way to be mean when it’s simpler to live and let live. 

Whichever road you take – whether it’s hero or villain – a proper cape is always the way to go. For this time of the year, I’m employing a rust colored woolen beauty that simply reeks of autumnal splendor. It keeps the wind at bay, quieting the world and even warming my head when the hood is on. Functional and flamboyant and just a little bit of a fuck-off to society’s dull trappings of what’s appropriate. Perfect for the fall, when the sweetness or bitterness of certain berries works like a tonic to steer us into good witch or bad witch territory. I haven’t quite made up my mind as to which witch I want to be… either way, I intend to fly.

“You will never become a hero if you keep waiting for someone else to bring a cape for you.” ~ Akshay Vasu

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Dazzler of the Day: Lisa S. Lee

It’s a rare treat when the Dazzler of the Day is also a family friend, so this post warms my heart a bit more than most as it honors an artist I not only respect but count as a part of the family. This is Lisa S. Lee, an author, speaker, entrepreneur, brand and innovation strategist, and Champion of Creators. She is the partner of Suzie’s brother Andy, and they live in Portland, OR with their daughter Ella. Check out Lisa’s website here for further evidence of her brilliance. Since her skills as a writer vastly outshine mine, here is part of her story in her own words:

Once upon a time, I was a corporate marketing gal living in NYC. Now, I’m a Portland writer, speaker, branding educator and entrepreneur. I traded in my black high heel pumps for a pair of teal Hunter rain boots.

I’ve spent a lot time soul searching, trying to find the deepest expression of who I am, the creative spirit I was meant to be. I hope, through my writing, that I can impart some of the wisdom I’ve learned along the way.

If you want inspiration on how to experience more joy through creativity, follow me at @lisaleecreates on Instagram and Facebook

My Story

At age 35, I lived ‘work hard, have fun’ lifestyle in one of the most dynamic cities in the world – New York City. I kept constantly busy, eating in fancy restaurants, going to shows and parties, and dating – a lot. I had a six figure job with a great title and an interesting career in branding and innovation. I had just bought my first adorable yet spacious 1-bedroom apartment, Once a year I traveled to a far off place – Brazil, South Africa, Italy. It seemed as if I had it all.

But in reality, it all felt a bit empty. Something in my life was missing, but I wasn’t sure what it was.

After a particularly intense work period, I went on a vacation to a yoga ashram where I woke up at 5 a.m. every day to meditate. I did yoga several times a day and ate vegetarian food twice a day (and didn’t starve as I thought I would).

That’s where I realized that I was living A dream life – but it just wasn’t MY dream life. I was going through the motions, chasing the idea of what I thought a fulfilling life was. Yes, some of those things were extremely enjoyable. I am a foodie at heart. I love traveling. Even though I was stressed all the time, I actually really liked my job.

My life was filled with wonderful things on the outside, but I didn’t have the richness of insight on the inside. I thought all this stuff – a great job, a great apartment, a great lifestyle – would make me happy. But I wasn’t happy inside. I didn’t know what my authentic self wanted or needed. I was yearning to know myself.

That’s when it dawned on me. I needed to get off the hamster wheel. I had to do it in an extreme way, or else I’d chicken out and never do it. I went to work after my vacation and quit my job.

I quit my job to get to know myself. To go within. To do some soul searching. To follow my bliss.

I have done the deep work into knowing myself and discovering my own authentic self. I have crafted the life I’ve yearned to have – to live MY best life, not someone else’s. I have made creativity a daily practice.  I hope to inspire other women to do the same. If you’d like a little bit of that inspiration, sign up for my e-mail list where I’ll share some of the insights I’ve learned about going within.

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I’ll Be Gone… In A Day or Two

When this song first stormed the world charts, I was only about ten years old. It was the zenith of the 80’s, and it was the period in which I began to be aware of the pop music scene. Songs from the mid-to-late-80’s would form the soundtrack to the formative portion of my life, and to this day they kindle some of the most powerful emotions and memories. 

For this one, I don’t have any specific recollections – I just remember it breezing along on the radio, redolent of those glorious 80’s, and given a shine by my coming-of-age in the ensuing years. In the same way that this recent redoing of a pop song like ‘Downtown’ rendered it in more melancholy and emotional form, this version of A-Ha’s ‘Take On Me’ was redone by the original band, and it evokes more feelings than the first time around.

So needless to say
I’m odds and ends
But I’ll be
Stumbling away
Slowly learning that life is okay
Say after me
It’s no better to be safe than sorry…

On a trying Monday night, because all Mondays are trying in some fashion, but the first Monday in November feel especially unbearable, I sit down in the attic and type away trying to find a way to exorcize the demons of the day. My hair is unstyled after a shower, and my black t-shirt has a streak of white paint from when I painted the room in which I now sit. I’m all a bit of a mess, odds and ends, stumbling and bumbling and no more safe than sorry. The words ring differently without a bright dance beat to them, the melody more plaintive than I ever remember the world being when I was ten years old. Maybe this is what being an adult feels like, and why so many refuse to give in to it. 

Oh, things that you say
Yeah, is it a life or
Just to play
My worries away
You’re all the things I’ve got to remember
You’re shying away
I’ll be coming for you anyway

The things we each must do to take on the world.

And the things that we must do to let someone else take us on. 

My heart comes close to bursting when I think of those who have had the courage to take on me. My father’s instant acquiescence to finding a home for me in Boston. My mother’s carving out her Mother’s Day weekends to spend them with me on Broadway. My husband’s tender care in creating the perfect pan of lasagna for our family. There is love so genuinely and so simply, and it never fails to move me. 

Taking me on will never be an easy task. For better or worse, I’ve designed it that way, and it will always be harder to love me because I’ve spent too many years protecting myself to let that go now. But if you don’t mind, I’m going to keep asking and trying and hoping to be loved, and doing my best to deserve it. 

I don’t know what
I’m to say
I’ll say it anyway
Today is another day to find you
Shying away
I’ll be coming for your love, okay?
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Dazzler of the Day: Subrina Dhammi

Evening anchor Subrina Dhammi has seen various Hunks of the Day to her left and to her right over the years, and now it’s her turn to step into the Dazzler of the Day for her studied poise and pizzazz on Channel 13, WNYT. When she’s not anchored to the news desk, she’s running or dancing or spending family time with her husband and daughter. 

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Cheery Cyclamen

Today is Election Day, so I urge everyone to get out and vote. And honestly, when you consider the official Republican platform, the only sensible thing to do is #VoteBlue. I’m usually more independent in my choices, but this country is on the precipice of being lost – and it’s the crazy Trump-supporting anti-vaxxer asshole Republican morons who are going to wreck it for all of us. Right this ship before it’s too late. 

Ok, now that that’s done, let me move onto the real post at hand, which is a celebration of the cyclamen, because they are coming into their own in the local greenhouses, and as November sheds its stubborn leaves, the barren gray days ahead need a jolt of color and life. 

Cyclamen flowers float like butterflies above their handsome mottled foliage, speckled with sage green and wintergreen and all kinds of green. Florals and leaves combine for a showy yet graceful combustion of color and form.

When the days go dark, and the grays go wild, and the land begins its slide toward a winter slumber, we need this sort of fanciful hothouse escape.

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Downtown, Downtempo

WHEN YOU’RE ALONE AND LIFE IS MAKING YOU LONELY
YOU CAN ALWAYS GO DOWNTOWN
WHEN YOU’VE GOT WORRIES, ALL THE NOISE AND THE HURRY
SEEMS TO HELP I KNOW
DOWNTOWN

Most kids think of their parents simultaneously as the most glamourous people on earth as well as the oldest people on earth. I was no different, so when my Mom told us stories of how she used to go shopping in downtown Albany, it felt like the fanciest place in the world. She also had a record (a real vinyl record) of Petula Clark singing her signature hit ‘Downtown’ that I would play on our first record player and imagine my mother walking along Pearl Street seeking out a dress or hat or a piece of jewelry. She grew up in the time of Jackie Kennedy and the elegant suit dresses of Chanel paired with a pill box hat. It was a classic style that endures to this day.

JUST LISTEN TO THE MUSIC OF THE TRAFFIC IN THE CITY
LINGER ON THE SIDEWALK WHERE THE NEON SIGNS ARE PRETTY
HOW CAN YOU LOSE?

Years later, she would also show us the brighter lights of New York City and Boston, and I would eventually get lost in both on occasion, but somehow they always paled in comparison to the way little old downtown Albany sounded when it was the most exciting retail perch near Hoosick Falls or Amsterdam, NY. While its days of bustling feel lost forever, there are still glimmers of it when all the state workers are out and about for lunch, or when a new restaurant or store opens up. They are too often fleeting, but some linger…

THE LIGHT’S SO MUCH BRIGHTER THERE
YOU CAN FORGET ALL YOUR TROUBLES,
FORGET ALL YOUR CARES
SO GO DOWNTOWN
THINGS WILL BE GREAT WHEN YOU’RE DOWNTOWN
NO FINER PLACE FOR SURE
DOWNTOWN
EVERYTHING’S WAITING FOR YOU
DOWNTOWN… DOWNTOWN

This revamped version of ‘Downtown’ as sung by Anya Taylor-Joy in ‘Last Night in Soho’ is the remake I didn’t realize we needed, bringing a melancholic undertow to the notion of Downtown as a frame of mind, a time and place lost to history but rekindled in a new generation, and a new way of making one’s way through the world. The original optimism of the song is tempered by the recent decades that have certainly worked to dampen such enthusiasm. Yet hope remains on the wistful and breezy notion of finding spaces and places of escape.

DON’T HANG AROUND AND LET YOUR PROBLEMS SURROUND YOU
THERE ARE MOVIE SHOWS DOWNTOWN
MAYBE YOU KNOW SOME LITTLE PLACES TO GO TO
WHERE THEY NEVER CLOSE DOWNTOWN
JUST LISTEN TO THE RHYTHM OF A GENTLE BOSSA NOVA
YOU’LL BE DANCING WITH THEM TOO BEFORE THE NIGHT IS OVER
HAPPY AGAIN

There is a time in most of our lives – maybe our twenties, sometimes into our thirties -when the world feels as glamorous as it will ever feel, when we are as handsome and young and fashionably turned out as we will ever be, and if we’re lucky we catch the feeling, and feel the crest and synergy of it as we walk in our own ideas of Downtown. Somewhere my memory turns into that of my mother’s, and I’m browsing the endless counters at some department store, spritzing perfume and letting the silk of scarves run through my fingers as if they were the smallest jewel-like streams of water. 

THE LIGHT’S SO MUCH BRIGHTER THERE
YOU CAN FORGET ALL YOUR TROUBLES,
FORGET ALL YOUR CARES
SO GO DOWNTOWN
THINGS WILL BE GREAT WHEN YOU’RE DOWNTOWN
NO FINER PLACE FOR SURE
DOWNTOWN
EVERYTHING’S WAITING FOR YOU
DOWNTOWN… DOWNTOWN

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A Recap to Remember on the 1st of November

A lot went down on the blog in the past week, and as we enter the month of November it’s a good point to pause and remember. Here’s how it all shook out…

It began with a whisper of Halloween in this hint of what took us ten years to make

This week marked two years since I had my last alcoholic drink

Our first Halloween song in ten years came to fruition in a single weekend: this is ‘Home for Halloween’

Smile like you mean it

Abhorring cheap sentimentality.

Cozy in Connecticut

A late show by the hydrangeas.

The blue heron stands.

A cactus for Halloween.

I got boosted like a bad-ass.

This hat was made for Halloween.

And this kid won Halloween.

Our Dazzler of the Day was Dr. Joseph Abramo, who made this year’s Halloween song happen.

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This Kid Wins Halloween

My little pal Cameron just won Halloween with his spot-on depiction of the legendary Jackie Kennedy Onassis. Down to the hat and bag and sunglasses, he personifies the former First-Lady-turned-powerhouse-Editor, unmistakably channeling her glamour and elegance and strength. In a lot of ways, those are all elements of Cameron’s own style and personality, and seeing him display it brings a tear to my eye, because this was something I wish I had seen (or been) in my childhood

“The children have been a wonderful gift to me, and I’m thankful to have once again seen our world through their eyes. They restore my faith in the family’s future.” ~Jackie Kennedy Onassis 

Cameron has spent the last few months extolling the virtues of Jackie O and Princess Diana, so I’m not surprised he chose Jackie as his Halloween costume. She’s also not a bad role model to have. She always inspired my mother, who saw behind the phenomenal fashion and noble elegance to something deeper and more powerful: the grace and grit to get through the most unimaginably horrific events of the 60’s and survive with children and integrity intact. 

For Cameron, I hope it’s still mostly an appreciation for her fabulousness and sense of fashion. In his case, he’s pondering a career either as a fashion designer or a fashion historian – both of which he’s well on his way toward accomplishing. (He’s only nine years old, so he has some time…)

“Once you can express yourself, you can tell the world what you want from it… All the changes in the world, for good or evil, were first brought about by words.” – Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis

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A Halloween Hat & A Halloween Song

To get into the Halloween spirit, I found this fuchsia witch’s hat that went perfectly with a rust-colored cape, as well as this orange coat, and a scarf that encompassed all the aforementioned colors. I donned it while prancing around Missy and Joe’s Connecticut backyard in-between working on our latest holiday endeavor

The Halloween song for 2021, ‘Home for Halloween’ has already been posted with the behind-the-scenes making-of stories here, but it’s more than worth another listen on this special day, so give it a whirl. 

Halloween, perhaps now more than ever, is a gateway holiday – the one that opens the floodgates toward Thanksgiving and Christmas. While they are a bit of a way off, this year I’m indulging earlier than normal and getting into the spirit of things starting in November. We need it. There is too much awful sadness in the world, and circumstances are entirely too serious for us to put off the happy holiday season and relegate it to one or two weeks at the end of the year. Let’s have it early, let’s make it last, and let’s become a little kinder from this point forward. 

As for Halloween, this has usually been my day off. I’ve been putting on a costume parade for the past forty years, even when going to the supermarket, so I’ve earned this reprieve. Halloween is amateur hour. Come see me on a typical Tuesday night if you want real flash and astonishment

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Boosted Like a Bad Ass

A couple of days ago I got my COVID vaccine booster, and as soon as you’re eligible you should do the same – it’s the only way we are going to get rid of this and maybe return to some normal semblance of living. Not that I mind the social distancing or telecommuting… Anyway, here is where I went to set up my appointment and it couldn’t have been simpler. 

#GetVaccinated #GetBoosted 

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A Cactus for Halloween

Our crazy holiday cactus has decided to bloom for Halloween this year, and we are celebrating it because there is a dearth of color in the garden right now – and for the foreseeable future. When last it bloomed it was February, skirting its usual holiday-oriented bloom time (which is a toss-up between Thanksgiving, Christmas, and Easter). She’s putting on her pink splendor for Halloween, as if wanting to take part in the dress-up festivities. I’ll leave her to it. 

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The Blue Heron Stands

Against the implacable rush of water, the blue heron stands tall, feet firmly planted on the stream-bed, head held still and high. Statuesque – and it is indeed like a sculpture as it stands there unmoving – it commands this section of the stream, holding court like the royal bird it is. 

It is an inspiration, waiting so patiently and quietly, so still and stoic amid the madness of the water swirling about its legs. Is it resting or watching for a meal? The blue heron keeps its secrets as close as its feathers, hidden by the elegance of its long neck and beak – grace and beauty their own deceptive shields. 

The only secret I want to discover is how it manages to stay so calm and still in such cold and disruptive water. Every time I think I’m approaching that stillness, something knocks me off the peaceful perch. I am too quickly swayed by the rush of the world, too easily knocked down by the maelstroms of all that swirls by in a single, and not even very tumultuous, day. Blue heron, tell me that secret and you can keep all the others. 

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A Late Show

The hydrangeas have given us their most floriferous year since I planted most of them almost two decades ago. While they have grown into large and impressive plants given their age, they don’t always bloom a lot. It’s a challenge of Zone 5 winters, which up to the past few years have usually killed off the buds before they get a chance to develop. This year, however, all buds survived, and coupled with a less-severe pruning practice, we were rewarded with buckets of blooms all summer long.

That has continued into the fall, and without a proper frost yet we still have blooms coming along nicely, as seen in this light blue branch, which I clipped for indoor enjoyment. It’s deceptively soft and delicate, and looks like something that’s more suited for the brightness of spring. I like the mirror of that at the end of the season – it reminds me that we are closer to spring than we think, already over a full month into fall. 

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Cozy in Connecticut

Up until now I’d only ever visited my friends Missy and Joe at the height of summer – in the blazing sunny glory of late June or early July – so to make the pretty drive to Connecticut in October was a new, and lovely, fall experience. On the way, I took a detour down to New Canaan, where I stopped by our friend Carl’s store for a quick visit and a gift for Joe. It was an auspicious beginning for a weekend of fun, a musical labor of love, and a reunion with people have become more like family than friends.

My summer trip earlier this year began with a stormy arrival at the tail-end of a hurricane, which was pretty much how the entire summer went, but autumn has granted us a reprieve in the weather department, and that summer visit provided its own enchantments, overcast days be damned. No such gray skies clouded this trip, and I arrived to find a sunny backyard in the throes of autumnal splendor. Joe greeted me as Missy was at work and the kids were at school, and we wasted no time in getting right into the making of the Halloween song.

The work, documented fully here, was fun and exciting, and it was a thrill to see someone take the most rudimentary of musical ideas and turn it into a full-fledged song. He added guitar, a bass line and a drum track, culling and coalescing all the visions I had into aural form. We worked downstairs near the guitar garden and the meditation pond, then moved upstairs to the keyboard and recording room (actually Julian’s bedroom). The hours passed quickly, as much for the enjoyment of the labor as for the enjoyment of the company, and soon it was time for dinner. Missy and the kids joined us to prepare dinner, then Missy had to take Julian to a cello lesson, so Joe continued working on the song a bit more.

The night grew pleasantly cooler – a fine fall evening in Connecticut – ideal for slumber and talking with dear friends. The next day dawned in even sunnier splendor, and Doug and Julio were going us for dinner. Missy put together a delicious feast and we enjoyed a gathering of people that go back to my childhood. By that time we had completed the framework of the song and just needed someone to sing it – and Doug was gracious enough to oblige. It came together as the evening closed, and by the next day Joe had finished it completely. 

Creating art together may be one of my favorite ways of getting closer to a friend. Spending time with Missy, who has known me since we were kids attending Suzie’s birthday parties, is always a balm for my heart. And getting to feel like part of their family is something that makes me feel better about all the other things going on in my life and in the world. 

It was a very good weekend in fall. 

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