Dream Bread

Like many kids, my favorite part of an Italian meal at certain restaurants was the garlic bread that started the dinner. At the Armory Grill in Amsterdam, NY, they offered an opening salvo of extra deliciousness in a spinach garlic bread – something I have not had or seen since. It was buttery and garlicky, and the spinach was just lightly distributed among the folds of the dough. I could have devoured the entire bowl of it, though every piece was equitably doled out because we all loved it so much. 

Since those childhood days, I’ve often thought about that spinach bread. It has haunted me happily for four decades, yet for some reason I never thought of trying to re-create it. Having conquered my fear of yeast, and rolling out dough, it might be time. Suzie has been encouraging me to try it out, and it is definitely a worthy goal. This effort came close – I added butter to the olive oil and garlic before wilting the spinach, then sprinkled some Italian seasoning and mozzarella cheese. The bread best open in the oven, but the taste was good. I think the cheese was too much. Next time I’ll simplify it and see if the spinach and butter and garlic is enough. 

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Cinnamon Roll Start

Check the date, have some newly-legal fun, and come back to visit this page during the day as I’ve decided to populate the posts with food stuff. That means if you’re having a case of the munchies, you might find some inspiration here. (Later on I’ll describe an amazing spinach bread I’m trying to find after forty years of being haunted by its deliciousness.) 

For the morning, here’s a batch of cinnamon rolls I made for work this week. Using the dough recipe from these lemon cardamom rolls, I switched out the citrus for cinnamon, and the cardamom for chopped pecans. For the frosting, I used butter and crisco as the base eliminating the cream cheese entirely. It was a magical transformation, and a hit for all who tried it. 

Come back in a bit for that spinach bread search and another food hit… and smoke ’em if you’ve got ’em.

Happy 4/20!! 

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Rest. Relax. Rejuvenate.

“We humans have lost the wisdom of genuinely resting and relaxing. We worry too much. We don’t allow our bodies to heal, and we don’t allow our minds and hearts to heal.” ~ Thich Nhat Hanh

It was during my third breaking point on Monday alone when I realized there would be no end to the breaking points. The idea of getting through one more obstacle in the hope that it would be the last one – I suddenly saw it as the folly it was, and in that instant the lifting began. We go through so many things without letting others know, especially those of us who aren’t accustomed to asking for help or admitting failure. And for those whom the world views as gliding through life so easy and effortlessly – well, those may very well be the ones who are closest to drowning. 

Stress and worry are the constant companions of adulthood, but there are those who have found a way of dealing with them without letting them weigh down or overwhelm their daily existence. These are the wise ones who have embraced the importance of recharging their batteries, of making time for relaxation and rest. They are the ones who have found how to release regret and anger and annoyance – to acknowledge and then genuinely set them free. They have found ways of play, of laughing at the absurdity of life, and how we as humans just pile more nonsense and silliness on top of everything until it’s one big mess. They’re the ones who seem to have it all figured out. 

“It’s very important that we re-learn the art of resting and relaxing. Not only does it help prevent the onset of many illnesses that develop through chronic tension and worrying; it allows us to clear our minds, focus, and find creative solutions to problems.” ~ Thich Nhat Hanh

As we near the warmer months, and the coming of summer, the seasons will soon turn to those of fun and enjoyment – the traditional time of vacations and relaxation. Summer eases all, with its lazy, hazy days of heat and humidity, when the mere act of walking from one room to another seems to take a Herculean effort. Summer is funny and wonderful that way, and fraught with lessons I’m still trying to master. I can’t wait to keep trying. 

“We will be more successful in all our endeavors if we can let go of the habit of running all the time, and take little pauses to relax and re-center ourselves. And we’ll also have a lot more joy in living.” ~ Thich Nhat Hanh

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A Pansy’s Smile

A true pansy laughs off spring snowstorms, shuddering in the wind and cold, but bravely prevailing and shaking off the icy cloak of winter’s death throes. At the time of this writing, I have no idea what sort of snow event we will be getting today, or how it might affect the plants outside. It’s way too early for me to have put anything outside, and the perennials and shrubs will have the power to shrug off the snow as needed. We may lose a few flowers in the process, but such is to be expected in upstate New York. 

In the meantime, this glimpse of pansies from the local nursery will provide a happy thing to look upon while we trudge through a decidedly dreary day. Andy had hoped to have the pool open and running by now, though it may be best to wait a bit. No sense in having it snow on that parade. 

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Lighting a Fire Under My Ass with this Pop of Color

While spring wavers in properly arriving, and we still have snow squalls terrorizing the neighborhood, I’ve been in a bit of a funk, seeking some source of inspiration for kicking myself into spring gear. I may try switching out the rose quartz crystal I use in my daily meditation with a carnelian stone, which supposedly ignites the creative drive. 

Or maybe this blazing begonia seen at Faddegon’s will prove the incendiary source of inspiration to usher me into creatively fertile ground. Any recommended music, books, shows, movies, or artists are always appreciated. 

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Easter Family Recap

Easter came and went amid sun and snow squalls, indicative of the transitory nature of mid-April. We spent a lovely early dinner with the family, then a quiet afternoon in which I managed to fill a few more lawn bags as I rounded the far corner of the yard. It’s about half-way done now, though the weather looks iffy for the next week, meaning I’ll be taking it slow, which bodes well for this 46-year-old body. On with the Holy Week recap…

It began with a bout of the Tuesday blues

A preview of the new seasonal mocktail: the calamansi cooler.

This wretched train took us all the way to Florida

Sharing is a bonus part of meditation.

Vacation or bust.

Not playing around with the possum

The first blooms of the season are blue

Floral fireworks from Faddegon’s.

A Pink Moon brings beauty and havoc

Bright and sunny ambivalence

A funny resurrection, and that annual Easter fright shot

Easter lily happiness

A Ramos gin fizz, minus the gin and the egg white

Dazzlers of the Day included Ketanji Brown Jackson, Tess Collins, and Matt Baumgartner

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The Ramos Gin Fizz: Minus the Gin and Egg White

This admittedly-bastardized version of the Ramos gin fizz – entirely bereft of alcohol and egg white – has no real business being called a gin fizz, but it tastes just as lovely, with the fresh lemon and lime juice ricocheting neatly off the orange blossom water and kaffir lime simple syrup. With those potent flavors, the non-alcoholic gin alternative works well enough. For the soda water topper, I used some yuzu seltzer water, which was wondrous. All in all, it’s a mocktail that doesn’t feel like it’s missing anything.

For extra froth, I could have added the egg white, but with it being the end of a full Pink Moon weekend, I was taking no chances. Easter is fraught with enough risks

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Easter Happiness

Easter shouldn’t be entirely traumatic, so here’s a fun and happy Easter post that shows off the original trailer for that sweet musical ‘Easter Parade’ starring Judy Garland and Fred Astaire. It’s not my favorite musical – not by a long shot – but the costumes and theme are resurrected every year at this time because I’m not a fan of the other Easter movies out there. Such a difficult theme to do well… 

Along with this glimpse at the musical, I offer you a few Easter lilies, whose fragrance always brings me back to another traumatic event: serving mass during Holy Week. But that’s a nightmare for another holiday. For today, let’s rest and revel in a spring revival. 

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A Funny Resurrection

Yes, I remember the day this picture was taken. 

It is probably one of my very first memories, and it is ingrained wherever memories are made and stored. I remember standing in the line at the Mohawk Mall, a small part of me wanting to see the Easter Bunny, and the much larger rest of me freaking entirely out, shuffling ever closer with increasing terror and fright. That likely didn’t start my social anxiety, but it was the very first remembered brush with it, so traumatizing was the event. 

And even though nothing bad happened, even though I made it through and survived without major incident, it left a mark, and my social anxiety didn’t abate or lessen. If anything, it was emboldened to terrorize me for the next forty years, because it wreaked that much havoc with my head. 

It didn’t help that the bunny was such a fright in and of itself. I mean, how cruel was it to introduce that glorious purple tulle ruff to a gay boy, and pair it with a face as diabolical as that? No wonder my taste eventually ran to what it became. 

Since that fateful Easter encounter, I’ve had to work through all the rabbit trauma, which ended up being easier than working through the social anxiety, and in a strange way, I’m grateful for that memory. Without the challenges it presented then, now, and probably for a few tomorrows, I wouldn’t challenge myself as much. 

Happy Easter everybody! 

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Bright & Sunny Ambivalence

My relationship with the Forsythia bush has long been strained. While I always appreciated its early blooming period, often the very first plant to bravely put forth any blossoms at such a precarious point in time, the rest of the plant, and even the flowers themselves, have proven problematic for my admittedly fastidious, and perhaps unfair, viewpoint. 

As mentioned, Forsythia is known best for its bright yellow blooms, seen here on a few nursery specimens (because I absolutely will not grow this in our yard). They are a happy mark that signals the return of spring, and warmer weather to come. Their drawbacks are that while stunning in color, in form the flower branches are often bare at top and between the blooms, making it necessary to drastically prune for any sort of arrangement. They also generally appear on straight and rigid stems, giving a somewhat unnatural and stilted appearance. 

More problematic for me is the rest of the plant and its growing style. With the exception of some rigid stems bearing flowers, the rest of the new shoots are wild and wiry, issuing forth from the center of the plant and going absolutely everywhere without rhyme or reason. They will grow tall, to the point where they flop over and start rooting in the soil – a method of propagation that might work well in the wild, but absolutely ruins any hope of landscaping order. It goes against my very Virgo nature, and while I have learned to appreciate such wild wanderings from some plants, the forsythia doesn’t appeal to me in many other ways to change my view. As such, I admire these plants from a distance, just at this particular time of the year, and move on to warmer days as quickly as possible. 

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A Pink Moon Brings Beauty and Havoc

An anything-but-good Friday began with Betsy spilling her coffee on her shirt, and from there the workday went swiftly downhill. Halfway into the afternoon I wondered briefly if there was a full moon in effect, but then more things piled up and I forgot to check. As messes and mistakes grew in scope and size, and the day turned even crazier, Andy picked me up and went into detail about the lunatics he had just encountered on the road. 

I took out my phone and googled ‘full moon April 2022’ and sure enough, here we are. Today marks the full Pink Moon – named not for its pretty color, but for the fact that the moss pink (Phlox subulata) is in bloom now. Not in these parts, of course, but somewhere a bit warmer. The Phlox subulata in our area won’t come into its glory for another month or so, but I love the idea of the moon reflecting what blooms are showing up somewhere else in the world. 

I don’t love the effects of the full moon as a rule, however, so I will be staying quiet and doing my best to steer clear of lunacy for the next day or so. 

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Floral Fireworks at Faddegon’s

When spring is slow to start, and the flowers are hesitant to open, I find my way to Faddegon’s to get a little floral fix before everything opens at once. (It usually happens when more than one day in a row deigns to be warm, and since that doesn’t look to happen with any consistency soon, here are a few floral blasts from the local greenhouse. They give a thrill because of their strong colors, and may be appreciated more than when the outside world will inevitably catch up to them. 

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The First Blooms of the Season

Yesterday hit 82 degrees, instantly bringing out the first blooms of the season – and they happened to be blue. These little Scilla bulbs are usually the first into blossom after winter, and often they’re ragged and torn from wind and snow and ice. This year they’ve been largely unscathed, though I’m not holding out hope that such pristine delicacy will last (there were whispers of snow in the forecast sometime in the next few days). For now, they are a welcome beacon of spring – and the one spot of color in a brown and barren yard. Even the Lenten rose has delayed its arrival, still huddled close to the ground and slumbering beneath a layer of oak leaves. 

The photos give a greatly exaggerated idea of their size and stature, but in my mind this is how big and impressive they feel, especially when nothing else is brave enough to be in bloom at this stage. The largest bloom in actual size is about the size of a dime. That such a tiny thing can have such an impact will always impress my mind and thrill my heart. 

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Dazzler of the Day: Matt Baumgartner

In the magical way with which she does just about everything, Tess Collins provided the perfect segue into this Dazzler of the Day with one of the photos from her feature. Most people in Albany need no introduction to the magnificent Matt Baumgartner and his storied career (from starting the Bombers enterprise with a single casino win to his current raging success at June Farms). For all his business successes and acumen, he has an equally-powerful philanthropic side that more than justifies his ability to dazzle (many of us still recall the billboard he erected in support of marriage equality, back when New York teetered on the edge of not passing it into law). For a beautiful glimpse of the spell Baumgartner has cast on upstate New York, check out the idyllic majesty of June Farms this spring and summer, and visit their website for all they have to offer

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Not Playing Around with the Possum

Despite what some consider a somewhat ferocious appearance, the opossum is an animal that greatly aids our backyard ecosystem. As seen in the helpful reminder below, this creature gets rid of hundreds of pesky problems, while offering no threat or harm to us. Earlier this year, I witnessed two of them lumbering through our yard early in the morning, a reminder of this visitor from two years ago. It was good to see them making their patrol, and I’m glad they are working their neighborhood magic. 

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