“Strength shows not only in the ability to persist, but in the ability to start over.” ~ F. Scott Fitzgerald
During the night the winds arrived. Harsh, driving, window-shaking gusts seeped through the tiniest cracks in the brick and mortar of the condo’s outer shell, filled with such ferocity that it shifted the sheer curtains which did little to keep out the cold. I’d never worried about the condo’s ability to withstand the weather, but on that night the wind was the strongest I’d ever witnessed. I pulled the blankets up to my neck and burrowed deeper into the bed.
The winds continued as dawn arrived. Our Holiday stroll weekend was coming to a close, much to our great regret. It had been a lovely few days, but with more snow on the way it was time to return to upstate New York. Before that, however, we had a few quick morning errands, and a breakfast at Charlie’s right around the corner. Bundled up and battling the wind, we hurried down Braddock Park and sidled up to the counter in front of the grills and toasters. A lackluster order of huevos rancheros was disappointing, but the company was still good, and Kira and I plotted our trip to the market for provisions in anticipation of the Boston Children’s Holiday Hour. Better than that was talk of our next get-together in January. Since the red line to Cambridge was out of commission on weekends, we didn’t get to Porter or Harvard Square, something we will rectify after the New Year. There are Tibetan stores with warm scarves that need our attention, and a couple of cozy dinner spots that we have yet to try. On the day of departure, it’s a small comfort to think of our next meeting.
Finishing our tea and breakfast, we bundled back up and made a hurried shuffle to the market, where we selected a bunch of seltzers, some cookies, and a few other items that would last the week until the children convened for their holiday hour. As much as I love those gatherings, I’ve come to the realization that I’m better in smaller scenes, with one or two good friends, and the peaceful coexistence that Kira and I have perfected in the last two decades would be missed.
With bags weighing us both down, and the wind whipping all around, we waited at Huntington for the light to change. I leaned into Kira hoping for a wind break, falling into her enormous scarf/blanket, then let my head rest briefly on her shoulder. After everything that had happened over the past few weeks, I felt exhausted and wiped out. It all came over me at once, and I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry or shout out of frustration or relief.
We crossed the street and ducked into a cafe for something warm. In a secluded seating area, we found two ridiculous chairs and waited for our coffee and hot chocolate to arrive. It had been a banner Holiday Stroll weekend, quieter but somehow more enjoyable than previous bombastic weekends in the distant past. We paused there, mostly silent, as the light of Sunday morning swept through the windows beside us. In that stillness we found something closer to the true meaning of Christmas, as two friends simply sat together, crossing life-paths, and it was enough.
{See also Part One, Part Two, Part Three, and Part Four.}
