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A Pair of Penguins, and the Smallest Grads

We attended the pre-school graduation ceremony of my niece and nephew yesterday, and it was kind of fantastic. WHile they don’t technically graduate until next year, they played a part in this year’s festivities, singing and dancing and dressing up as penguins for a Noah’s Ark skit (complete with choreographed waddle down the aisle). For a couple of four-year-olds, they behaved quite well (after having some stage fright at his Christmas pageant, Noah came out of his shell and sang his heart out with grand arm movements to rival any Evita histrionics I have conjured in the past).

After the ceremony, we went back to my parents’ house and had some post-grad fun followed by a little dinner. The rest of the photos speak for themselves. (My heart belongs to any kid with the courage to wear circus-peanut orange. Uncle Al is proud.)

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Caption These

It defies everything we thought we knew…

My mid-life crisis is going to last forever.

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Tuesday Morning Poem

Doesn’t Every Poet Write a Poem About Unrequited Love?
By Mary Oliver

The flowers

I wanted to bring you,

wild and wet

from the pale dunes

 

and still smelling

of the summer night,

and still holding a moment or two

of the night cricket’s

 

humble prayer,

would have been

so handsome

in your hands —

 

so happy – I dare to say it –

in your hands –

yet your smile

would have been nowhere

 

and maybe you would have tossed them

onto the ground,

or maybe, for tenderness,

you would have taken them

 

into your house

and given them water

and put them in a dark corner

out of reach.

 

In matters of love

of this kind

there are things we long to do

but must not do.

 

I would not want to see

your smile diminished.

And the flowers, anyway,

are happy just where they are,

 

on the pale dunes,

above the cricket’s humble nest,

under the blue sky

that loves us all.

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The Birthday Girl In All Her Glory

Today is Suzie’s birthday, and after Andy she’s probably the person I get asked about the most, based on what I write in this blog, and put up on FaceBook or Twitter or Instagram. I like that, the way that the people who are most important to me have become a cast of characters that other people care enough to inquire about.  As for Miss Thang, she will likely be spending her special day working and taking care of the family as per usual (we will have celebrated in NY at dinner and an Imelda Marcos musical by the time this gets posted.) Whenever I start complaining about how much I have to do or wonder where I’m going to find the time to do it, I think of Suzie and instantly shut the hell up.

She’ll be moving out of Brooklyn this month, which is something she’s been waiting and wanting to do for a while, but without a definitive plan or destination in mind, she and the family will probably be staying with her Mom for a bit. Selfishly, I’m a little excited, as we haven’t lived this close to each other since the 90’s.

Happy Birthday, Suzie! Here’s to fried clams, Mary Poppins, grape taffy, red lobsters, ham-bone, and Pinocchio. (I only really remember five of those references… what was ham-bone again?)

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A Recap for a Week of Peonies

The peony parade began later than usual this year, having only just started in the last week or so. Traditionally the peonies have been spent by the first flush of warm days in June. I prefer the later arrival, as it gives me time to appreciate their beauty after the excitement and jam-packed days of May.  For now, we look back on the first full week of June – the month of roses, even if the peonies are stealing the show with their lingering loveliness. One of the best invitations I’ve ever received was a simple hand-written note from my mentor Lee Bailey, who wrote, “Come and see me when the roses are in bloom.” I arrived just after their blooming season, and made a vow to never miss June again.

Earlier in the week we featured what will hopefully become my new summer fragrance, courtesy of none other than Tom Ford.

It was the start of the annual explosion, with some perennials giving off their own show as well.

Guys in Underwear.

A musical about Imelda Marcos. I’m in. So are Chris and Suzie.

Miss Madonna. Oh so classic.

We had a plethora of Hunks on parade as well, including ginger Christian Kruse, perfect male model Justin Clynes, Mr. Shades himself Jamie Dornan, Renaissance man Daniel Robinson, fellow Filipino Vince Ferraren, country crooner Luke Bryan, and World Cupper Olivier Giroud.

The first dip of the season. Non-skinny, believe it or not. (I waited until the second to take the clothes off.)

It was a cruel summer… but this one won’t be.

Oh, and some more guys in underwear.

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Wicked Summer Game

The school year had come to an end, and the days were full of ripe promise. In the heat and bright light of day, it seemed there were no wrongs in the world. Hollyhocks climbed into the blue sky, and the beetles that marred their foliage were picked off and drowned in cans of motor oil. Summer could be a messy business, but the iridescent wings of the doomed looked very pretty as they slowed and stilled themselves in the thick fluid.

There is a memory within a memory here, as a glass mason jar filled with dead beetles and oil gets replaced with an empty one, and I chase fireflies around in a corner of the backyard. Near a hedge of euonymus, I corner the pulsating bugs, lit from chemicals within, as they try to capture mates or call to friends or whatever the neon green light is for. Little stars of Gatsby’s great green dream glow and tease, just out of a little boy’s reach. It is a cruel thing, sometimes, to give a kid that kind of hope.

The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.
It’s strange what desire will make foolish people do.
I never dreamed that I’d meet somebody like you.
And I never dreamed that I’d lose somebody like you.
No, I don’t want to fall in love (This world is only gonna break your heart)
No, I don’t want to fall in love (This world is only gonna break your heart)
With you (This world is only gonna break your heart)

In the bedroom, when I was a little older, say the summer of ’91, I watched the street from my window. A book by Dickens fell to the floor. The CD had long since reached its last song. At night, all was gray, all was shadows, and the light of the moon crept in over the floor, over the bed, over the tendons of my wrist. Skin was somehow more true in the light of the moon. Strange how that happened, and I studied myself in the echoes of the sun’s reflection.

I wanted to marry the fireflies and save the beetles and go back and fix everything I had done wrong. I reached for the moon but it stretched farther away. ‘Don’t go,’ I whispered to no one, startling myself with the words. ‘Stay with me,’ I whispered to the night, but the night remained silent, moving slowly onward.

What a wicked game to play, to make me feel this way.
What a wicked thing to do, to let me dream of you.
What a wicked thing to say, you never felt this way.
What a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you and…
I want to fall in love (This world is only gonna break your heart)
No, I want to fall in love (This world is only gonna break your heart)
With you.

In the years to come, there would be men who whispered to me of love in the night. It’s always easier to whisper such things in the darkness. Safer, too. You stand a better chance of not being laughed at, or at least of not seeing the smile of victory, because there is always a victor in these matters. Usually it’s the one who is told they are loved who holds the power. True love, it is said, has nothing to do with power or victory marches, but the fact remains that the one who is told gets to hold the cards. Even if the teller is the more courageous soul.

Nobody loves no one.
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The First Dip of the Season

Sparkling across the swirling water of the pool, the sun slants down in the afternoon sky. The day has turned warm, and after working on the lawn and the garden the sweat was rolling down my back. Andy had heated the pool to a comfy 84 degrees, but instead of my customary dive I slowly made my way down the ladder into the shallow end, like I used to do as a kid.

There are two popular ways to enter a pool: stepping gingerly into the water inch by inch, or jumping right into the deep end, immediately submerging yourself. The latter is generally said to be easier to do when entering cold water. The slow and excruciating method of trying to gradually adjust and get comfortable as you painstaking lower yourself into the water is, in my mind, just a way to prolong the discomfort.

On this day, however, and into this warm water, the slow entry is pleasant. Easing my body beneath the surface, I am soon enough immersed in summer again, and as I push off into the deep end, I feel the weightless joy of floating at last.

It was a long winter, and I’m glad it’s over.

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Keeping It [In] Brief[s]

There has been a resurgence in briefs in the drawers of men, and it’s time to celebrate with a gratuitous post like this in which we revisit some of the more notable brief encounters we’ve had over the years, starting with an expert in fuzzy balls, Novak Djokovic. He keeps it simple in basic black – a wise and classic choice, on or off the court.

Mario Lopez kept it real in this pair of skimpy Christmas briefs, as he trimmed the tree and presented his presents.

Zac Efron gives tighty whities a bad name in this set of questionable briefs. One would have thought he’d fill them out better than that. Then again, one would prefer Zac Efron completely naked.

Faring far sexier in his briefs is Nick Youngquest, who knows how to pack a punch, and a package.

Sometimes a simple pair of white briefs is all you need for runway glory, at least according to Noah Mills and this ridiculously sexy walk.

Josh Wald may be wearing the skimpiest pair of briefs ever made here (one that perhaps passes into string bikini territory.)

Busting out of his Calvin Klein briefs is Ngo Okafor, whose chest more than matches what comes below.

Two words: wet briefs. Two more words: Sandor Earl. One last word: semi.

I can’t decide if Christian Sancho looks better in or out of his briefs.

Jack Mackenroth makes all sorts of underwear look great in all sorts of ways.

As bodacious as these brief-barers are, they still don’t quite match the excitement of a jockstrap – but that’s another post for another time.

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She’s So Classic

There’s been a lull in the Madonna Timeline, due mostly to laziness. Well, busy-ness that results in laziness – though exhaustion is a more apt term. For that, I apologize. To tide any Madonna fans over, here is a quick recap of some of her more classic tracks – as the next Timeline selection is one of her most iconic songs.

The most recent entry is one of my favorites: ‘Like A Prayer.’ The 1989 classic has withstood the test of time, and is arguably her finest musical moment.

The tender touch of ‘Crazy For You’ took me all the way back to 1985, and all those lonely nights listening to the radio, pining for what I didn’t even know I wanted.

The giddy bubble-gum pop of saccharine sweetness that was 1986’s ‘True Blue’ album found gooey aural honey in its title track, while upping the dramatic ante in ‘Papa Don’t Preach’ and ‘Live to Tell.’

The title track of her greatest album to date dropped in 1998, when ‘Ray of Light’ took that summer by storm. She’s got herself a universe, indeed.

A different kind of summer fun was hatched in 2012, when ‘Turn Up the Radio’ did its best to keep things sunny.

Even the strongest summer turns to fall, and so it was in 1995, when Madonna joined Massive Attack for the moody ‘I Want You.’ Shortly after that there was the brilliant, brittle self-empowering anthem of ‘You’ll See.’

No one quite understands it, but ‘Drowned World: Substitute for Love’ is still my favorite Madonna song. It cracked me open in ways no other song had done before, or since – though ‘The Power of Good-bye’ certainly came close.

Sex and romance and the bad-ass dominatrix named Dita reigned over the S&M parade known as ‘Erotica’ but it was ‘Justify My Love’ that planted the proverbial seed. I still sometimes miss the brazen, cheeky vixen of that time, and thrill when she returns in small doses.

Your definition of ‘classic’ may likely conflict with mine, and there’s no pleasing everyone when it comes to a blanket categorization like that, but these are some of the Madonna moments that made me sit up and take notice. Not that I wouldn’t have acted like a panting dog anyway ~ it’s my usual stance when it comes to Madonna.

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My Kind of Threesome

Tomorrow I will be reunited with Suzie and Chris, forming a favorite triumvirate who has roamed together for almost twenty years. This trip was not planned with much forethought (most of my trips are organized with long-range military precision) but it worked out and fell into our laps because it was simply meant to be. As things shifted into place, I realized how fitting, and necessary, this gathering may be. It will likely be the last time the three of us are together before Chris gets married this fall, and it will be the final time we’re together before Suzie leaves Brooklyn. I’ll bring my own drama to the proceedings in ways I won’t be revealing here, so this comes at a most opportune moment.

Prepare the way, New York.

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A Glimpse of Imelda Marcos via New York City

A sooner-than-expected return to New York comes in the form of this weekend’s quick jaunt to the city, where I’ll be hanging out with Chris and Suzie, and seeing ‘Here Lies Love’ – the Imelda Marcos musical currently playing Off-Broadway at The Public Theater. That’s right, an Imelda Marcos musical. I’ve been keeping my eye on this production for a while now – and it almost made it into last year’s plans with Mom, but it was sold out. When it reopened a short time ago, I decided that I needed to see it, and who better than Suzie and Chris to join me? The old team will be back in business.

The last time I was Off-Broadway was for the original run of ‘Hedwig and the Angry Inch’, and prior to that it was to see Greg Louganis in ‘The Only Thing Worse You Could Have Told Me.’ (I’d always intended to drag Suzie to ‘Naked Boys Singing’ but so far she’s escaped that fun fate.)

As for Ms. Marcos, she has, for reasons both obvious and hidden, been an inspiration. First, there is the Filipino connection. I’ve been to the country and the city where she reigned. I’ve seen some of the things she’s seen. I come from a large family whose majority of members still live there. Second, there are those shoes – so many shoes, so little time. I know the love of fancy footwear. Third, there is that image. The albatross from which she can never escape. A combination of misunderstanding, misbehavior, and Ms. Dictator. I know that cage, I’ve felt those shackles, and I’ve battled that pesky bird. Regardless of questionable morality and any poor decisions she may have made (the Marcos regime, of which she was an integral part, admittedly did commit many atrocities), she was just a person, who came from another province of the Philippines, but became something more. Whether she deserved it or not (the good and the bad that would eventually befall her) I cannot believe that there weren’t moments of noble intent, flashes of being a charitable person. We’re all capable of a few glimmers of goodness. After all, dictators and their wives aren’t born, they’re created, often by the very people who end up vilifying them.

I think it was a photograph in Time Magazine or Newsweek, in a cover story on Ms. Marcos, that originally captured my interest. It wasn’t the long rows of shoes or the expansive closets, it wasn’t in her grand chignon or the flowers in said chignon – it was a simple photo of her bathtub: richly appointed and peaceful, elegant but not ostentatious, surrounded by lush plants, and filled with bubbles. It was the look of luxury, the look of success, the look of beauty that then and there became the main goal of my life. It presented a glimpse of the Pretty.

At the time (and I was only in sixth grade) I set about to making my bathroom into something approximating that vision. A strappy dracaena drooped in the corner of the bathtub. I wiped out a spiderweb from another corner, along with its long-dessicated maker. I piled decorative shell-shaped soaps along the sink, inhaling their flowery scent and wondering if this is what Imelda smelled when she swooped into her toilette. I folded fluffy washcloths into neat triangles, arranging them carefully along the towel holder. And when it was done, I looked around and felt supremely disappointed.

It was grandly delusional, it was fabulously frivolous, and it was voraciously vacuous. Even when filled with warm water and bubbles, my bath was empty. It echoed with loneliness and solitude. There was no one to see. It was then that I realized all the pretty shoes in the world could not stamp out the longings of the heart.

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Waiting to Inhale

Perfectly-timed to fill in when the traditional lilac just begins to fade, the Korean Lilac offers an even more potent fragrance to ride on the spring wind. The flowers are, individually, a fraction of the size of the common lilac, but massed in clouds of blooms, as is their habit, their perfume can spread throughout their surroundings. That’s a damn fine trait for a scent this sweet.

They can grow into decent-sized shrubs, and the two in our backyard will need to be cut back as soon as they finish their show. (As a general rule, the best time to prune any flowering shrub is immediately after it finishes flowering. Most of us forget that next year’s blooms are based on the growth that’s happening now. Pruning things later in the season runs the risk of pruning out those buds.)

This plant also has neat and tidy foliage, the kind that seems to defy the mildew that plagues many other lilacs. That’s a boon for the hot and humid summers of the Northeast.

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Annual Explosion

It’s taken several years, but I’ve finally come around to using annuals in pots on our backyard patio. For quite some time, I was a perennial snob, not bothering with planting those flowers that could only last for a single season. I liked how the perennials got going as soon as they could – they didn’t need to wait for frost-free days, they just waited for their nature cycle to begin. There was no guess work or worry – and whatever happened regarding late frosts or snowstorms was something we could not control. It was risky, but the pay-off was substantial. An established swath of coneflowers or Helianthus could get a head start and fill in sooner than a patch of zinnias.

This was, however, mostly in my head. Most annuals, given their short life cycle, grow much quicker than their perennial counterparts. They have no choice but to make up the time, and because of that they can fill in a space sooner than one expects.

Another mental hurdle I had to overcome was the preconceived notion that pots were insubstantial and pointless. It turns out that the larger ones become integral parts of a landscape, such as in the way something like a mass of sweet potato vines can be completely transformative when softening architectural edges. Those sweet potato vines are currently the bedrock of our backyard patio, forming the living lushness that seamlessly transitions the house to the outside gardens.

This year I also planted some begonias that are taking off quite nicely. Their handsomeness is apparent in both flower and foliage. I’ll coddle and feed them to aid in their swift expansion, as I will do for this hanging fuchsia. A little extra effort reaps great rewards.

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Cloaked Like A Lady

Commonly called ‘Lady’s Mantle’ this popular perennial hold drops of water more beautifully than any other. Its common name is derived from the appearance of the leaves, which look somewhat like the mantle of a lady, back when women wore such fun things. Nowadays the closest things we have are the capes and cloaks from Tom Ford and Dolce & Gabbana – not quite something the average person will wear on the street (even if I would.)

As for the plant, the foliage is not its only fine attribute – it produces clouds of chartreuse blooms in the next few weeks, and they last a relatively long time, making for excellent bouquet fillers, or a simple but powerful statement if used en masse. The shade of the blooms is the perfect embodiment of the freshness of the garden at this time of the year. For these photographs, however, I wanted to emphasize the texture of the leaves, and their structural form.

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