As the temperatures went from tropical to temperate, the winds kicked up and Halloween night suddenly turned deadly. Ever since I had a spat of nightmares a few years ago that people were trying to break into our front door, I’ve never much enjoyed Halloween, when people coming to your door in scary costumes is suddenly ok and sanctioned. Because of that, I’m not the one who hands out the candy, and if it were up to me the lights would be off, the house would be bolted shut, and a warning shot would be fired off every ten minutes or so alerting the children that no one was welcome here.
On such an uneasy night, a surge of stormy weather was, I originally thought, rather unwelcome. How could it do anything other than add to the spooky tension already pervading the atmosphere? How many tales that began on dark stormy nights ever ended happily? Leaving Andy to man the front door with nothing but a big bowl of candy to protect him and our home, I secluded myself in the basement, where I tapped away on the laptop and watched ‘Practical Magic’ out of the corner of my eye. By 11 PM the movie was done and I traipsed upstairs to bed.
The wind had begun in earnest, and the rain had joined in the fun. I was sublimely exhausted, and as soon as my head hit the pillow I was instantly asleep – a rarity these days, when tossing and turning seems to be my preferred method of dealing with end-of-the-day fatigue. Sleep came quickly and easily, but an hour into such heavenly bliss I was scared shitless by the frightening visage of a figure lurking in the hallway and shining a flashlight on me. I screamed like I was being murdered, so terrified was I by this stranger, before I realized it was Andy, who was saying that the power was out and I would need to set my cel phone alarm.
I would never get back to sleep now, I thought, as my mind started racing and doing all the things that usually prevent sleep from coming. The wind outside howled, and I listened as the house was pelted by rain and acorns and who knows what other sort of debris from the oak trees and pines above. I waited for another big limb to come crashing into our attic as it done once many years ago, shaking the house to its foundation, but none ever came. That didn’t mean one wouldn’t, and so I went into a sleepless fit. Resigning myself to a night of restlessness, I thought back to the storms that would hit Boston, when the rain would start dripping onto the air conditioning unit and click and echo through the night. At first it was distractingly irritating, and I thought for sure it would keep me up like some metronome or clock whose ticking doesn’t blend into the background but ends up getting louder and louder. Instead, it began to lull me to sleep, to calm and quell fear with a steady drone and drumbeat.
On this night, the windstorm worked a similar sort of magic. While it first caused consternation and concern, it soon gave way to a distinct sort of gray background noise that turned my own fitful rage on its head. As the storm itself raged outside, the cozy comfort of our bed provided refuge and safety and warmth. There was just enough noise so that the stillness and quiet of our lost electricity did not manage to mess with my head. (It is possible for the world to be too quiet, especially when trying to sleep.) The storm snuffed out the terror, and soon I was happily ensconced in slumber.
