It was a question I pondered myself right before I posted it on Twitter: which to have in the days following Thanksgiving – a cold turkey sandwich with mayonnaise or a hot turkey sandwich with gravy? On that particular day-after-Thanksgiving, I opted for both, but I wanted to see how other people felt, so I threw the poll up on Twitter. (I’m mostly on Twitter these days, so follow me there. Fuck Facebook and screw Instagram, Twitter is about all I can emotionally handle right now.) The results are below, and I’ve never had a poll break this indecisively. We are indeed a world divided, even when it comes to leftovers.
November
2021
November
2021
Dazzler of the Day: Ana Gasteyer
Today marks the start of a series of concert dates for Ana Gasteyer in support of her festive album ‘Sugar and Booze’ which should be the new holiday classic that everyone is playing this year and beyond. Gasteyer earns her first Dazzler of the Day crowning thanks to that seasonal sparkle, but also thanks to her impressive body of work that ranges from stage to television to music and more. Check out her website here for more concert dates.
November
2021
Exiting November
Thirty days has September,
April, June and November…
And here we are on the 30th day of the penultimate month to the calendar year.
That means December arrives tomorrow, and with it the holiday season in full-swing. The aim, as it ever is, will be to keep things simple and genuine, to inhabit the moments as they arrive, and not to over-plan or commit to things that may just prove to be too much. I will follow the light of the day, take in the sky and the roving clouds, listen to the wind and the chatter of cardinals.
We leave November quietly.
November
2021
Dazzler of the Day: Kal Penn
Anyone who can be both a staff member in the Barack Obama Administration and star in the ‘Harold and Kumar’ movie franchise has got to be dazzling, and so it is that Kal Penn earns his first Dazzler of the Day, thanks to those storied roles, and quite a few more. His latest project is a memoir, ‘You Can’t Be Serious’, in which he finally reveals an 11-year relationship with his now-fiance Josh. Dazzling is indeed a serious business.
November
2021
Post-Turkey Recap
After the third day of leftover turkey, I may be ready to move onto something else. Maybe. And we didn’t even have a whole turkey, or a gathering for Thanksgiving for that matter. One day I’ll tell the story of why that was… Oh well, on with the recap of everything we did have in the last week…
A Christmas wish list, by request, as I’m not even in the mood for gifts. (Check the pulse.)
A midnight candle, at a quarter of a century.
Friendsgiving with Kira – Part 1.
Friendsgiving with Kira – Part 2.
Happy Thanksgiving, such as it was.
November
2021
Snow-capped Hydrangea Heads
Low temperatures and wind gusts conspired to keep the snow around longer than expected yesterday, which made for a few more photo opportunities. Here you see the snow-capped hydrangea flower heads, their dead and dried form taking on new life thanks to the coating of fresh snow. Encased by the crystalline cape, they are almost in re-bloom, a lovely if dimmer echo of their summer glory.
Now that the growing season has passed and the season of slumber is upon us, it’s up to architectural flourishes like the mop-heads that remain on the hydrangea stalks. Along with the branches and more stalwart grass stalks, this will comprise the bare bones of the garden in the months to come, augmented and accented by ice and snow, which forms its own beautiful landscape when the light is just right and the day doesn’t call for traveling.
While we may make-do with these faux-blooms for the moment, they will soon grow tiresome. That’s some time off, however, as winter has not even begun, but it’s less than a month away. And after that, the spring… when these hydrangeas will rise in shades of green and chartreuse, followed by new flowers and a new season of glory.
November
2021
Powdered Boughs
Agnes Obel provides the musical calm for this wintry post. After granting us a bit of a reprieve for November, Mother Nature has lobbed her first winter weather at us, and the wind and the chill bring January to mind. This music is indicative of that shift. Not wholly unwelcome, as we have to go through winter to get out of it. And winter holds its own enchantments if we can be brave enough to find and enjoy them.
The first snowfall seemed to come mostly at night, which feels a bit unfair to the kids who were waiting and watching. That was a favorite activity for my brother and me at this time of the year, and it would often be the first (and only) time we’d convince Dad to light the fireplace. Mom would make cups of hot chocolate, and as the first flakes of snow fell on the raw and tender ground, my brother and I would run around and celebrate the irrevocable coming of winter.
On this recent end-of-November morning, I stepped outside to take a few photos of the snow that had nestled in this juniper. The wind was brutal, and the sun did little to temper the cold. So the season begins…
Snow softens things in a way that almost nothing else can. It provides insulation to the gardens, creating a haven of consistent temperatures to stave off heaving and other dangers to the plants. We can’t be completely mad at it for that reason alone.
Even better, snow provides a reflective surface for light to double its effects, something we need as the shortest day of the year quickly approaches. The more light, the higher the spirits.
There is magic there too.
November
2021
Staying Warm While the Wind Rages
Outside the window a towering stand of fountain grass, brown and desiccated and paper-like, shudders and flails in the wind. A few strands are torn and blown high into the air. A light blue sky bereft of clouds stands behind it all. I make a cup of tea and ascend the small staircase to the attic room, where the heater has been running for a while. It is finally warm here, and this will be where I spend the day in cozy fashion. Surrounded by candles that flicker and glow, the light of the room is soft and the fragrance hints of the holidays – spices and pine trees and incense.
The feeling is at odds with the wind raging outside – a wind that rattles the roof, rumbling across the expanse above me. We lead such precarious lives – only a single roof between survival and demise – and it’s as dramatic and plain as it sounds. Cradling the cup of elderberry tea, warm in my hands, I sip and live to enter another night.
November
2021
Boston Berrylicious
Beside a Boston brownstone, a bunch of berries dangles above the steps leading to someone’s home. They sway slightly in the breeze and the afternoon sunlight, impossibly incandescent even in the strongest of rays. A natural holiday decoration, they hang like the littlest of ornaments, paving the way for the Christmas trees already on the march.
They are coming…
November
2021
Tryptophan Meditation
After a day of eating turkey and having a quiet Thanksgiving, one would think I’d be in a natural state of calm, and as it goes with most things, one would be completely wrong. When the heart and mind are in turmoil, when the little frustrations and blames prickle the minutes, I turn to the only solution that makes a difference, even if it’s just for a moment, and for me that’s meditation.
As Andy was watching a Dean Martin roast in the den, smiling and letting out a rare laugh, I lowered the music and lights in the living room and began taking deep and slow breaths. I lit a stick of Palo Santo and blew it out, watching the smoke curl around me, then closing my eyes and sinking into a deeper breath.
It took a little while, but eventually I found the empty space – the clear and calm stillness in that place where no thoughts raced or worried. It’s easier to find it than it was when I began meditating, and for that I’m grateful for the practice and the time spent figuring it out. It is a perch I can access wherever and whenever I need a bit of calm.
November
2021
November
2021
Vibrant Florals for Black Friday
This is my favorite day to work, as the office is mostly empty, gloriously quiet, and peaceful in the best possible way. It’s a reprieve from the hustle and bustle of the holiday season now in full-effect, and a satisfyingly calm entrance to said season. Seeking to bring some hygge into the journey to Christmas this year, I’m crafting more quiet moments like this. There will be bombast enough in the festivities to come.
November
2021
Wild Turkey Lurkey
The annual bridge from Thanksgiving to Christmas gets erected with this Turkey Lurkey post. In addition, the featured GIF is a wild turkey I captured while in Boston earlier this year. If not today, when? What on earth a wild turkey was doing skulking about Downtown Crossing is anyone’s guess. Anticipating the end times, in all likelihood.
Today’s quiet Thanksgiving actually wasn’t the quietest I’ve ever had, and for that reason it was less sad than anticipated. The quietest year was when I stayed on campus at Brandeis to work at Structure early the next morning. That didn’t seem sad at the time, though looking back I marvel that it didn’t bother me more. My mind at the time was a little work obsessed. We make our choices the best way we know how. Almost absolutely no regrets.
November
2021
Happy Thanksgiving
After another year of this pandemic and all the stupidity and foolishness that continues to put us in danger, there’s nothing else to be thankful for but family and friends who are still with us. For me, that’s my parents and Andy, and I’m extremely glad that they are still here in spite of setbacks and health scares and everything else that is happening in the world. Last year we weren’t sure about anything – this year feels even less certain – but we go on, and I’ll keep doing my best to protect the ones I love most, even if it means some hard truths and difficult decisions.
That’s not what this day is for, however, and this morning I have nothing but gratitude for the people who have given me such a wonderful life. That’s why I’m so ferociously protective about them, and why they take priority over everything else. We will never get back to those enormous extended-family gatherings at the Ko house on Locust Avenue – they are the stuff of childhood memories now, and they formed the bedrock upon which I was able to set out into the world, and to do my best to make something as decent and honorable as I could. It’s nothing too spectacular… and yet it is, in the way that we are all pretty spectacular when you think about what it truly takes to be a good person in the world today. I couldn’t ever make it this far alone, and Andy and Mom and Dad are the ones who kept me on track with their love and support, even and especially when it wasn’t always earned.
In the last couple of years, I’ve been doing my best to give back a little of that in the only ways I know how, and on this Thanksgiving the profound gratitude I feel for the past year is both humbling and moving.
May you have some of the same love and warmth in your day as well. Happy Thanksgiving.
November
2021
A Friendsgiving with Kira in Boston – Part 2
Christmas shopping formed the main impetus of our second day in Boston, so we headed to Downtown Crossing and rushed through the usual haunts. I made it through most of the remaining names on my list, and by lunch time we were in good standing to enjoy a return to Pho Pasteur. The last time I had pho was likely when I was with Kira in 2019, and our weekend of re-establishing some comforting things to do found another happy full-circle moment. Kira had been missing it too, and as the shadows of downtown chilled the air, and the wind whipped down from the nearby skyscrapers, we found our favorite pho place and began to heat ourselves up from the inside out.
With our shopping bags filled, we headed back along Boston Common toward the condo, and as the day had turned even more beautiful it seemed fitting to soak in the surroundings. This much sunlight, and such deep blue skies, aren’t the usual background to a Boston November, and we took our time walking to make the most of it.
The Boston Public Garden was filled with rambunctious squirrels, and this view, in every season, is always a heartwarming one. On this day the trees were giving their last show before shaking off their leaves for the long spell of winter ahead. The thought lent a chill to the sun-drenched air, and so we hurled along to the condo for a quick afternoon siesta.
We had a hot chocolate, then ventured out one more time to hit some shops in the South End, and to pass by the Christmas tree lot and smell the arrival of the holidays. Hints of holiday strolls past, and the ones yet to come, made for happy memories and reminiscences, while paving a path for next month’s return.
In some ways, this is usually where the most exciting and perfect holiday ideas dwell: when they are all only notions and possibilities, like these tied-up Christmas trees, bound and waiting to be unleashed a little deeper into December. Returning to the condo to change for dinner, we lit more candles as the light drained from the day and the coziness began.
Trying out a new restaurant used to be one of my favorite things to do in Boston – but as we settled into The Banks Fish House (in the former location of Post 390, where we had spent a Holiday Stroll dinner a few years ago) the whole Friendsgiving Dinner – purportedly the reason for this weekend – felt almost anti-climactic. We didn’t need a reason for celebrating our friendship, or to bring out the gratitude we felt for each other’s company once again.
The moon – full just a day before – accompanied us home, sending us into another peaceful night – and into the holiday season. Friends and family – the only things that matter.