Muted Vacation Visions

Fall in Ogunquit is always more muted than spring or summer, and we’ve always appreciated that sort of somber beauty, especially after a sensational summer of sun and adventure. Fall in Ogunquit is quieter and softer too. There may be storms and rain and fiery outburst of riotous weather from time to time, but the overall feeling is one of gentle calm and subdued celebration

Andy just booked our fall return to the Beautiful Place by the Sea, and a long weekend at the magnificent Scotch Hill Inn. We are already eagerly anticipating the breakfasts and happy ease of a fall visit. Ogunquit has a way of re-establishing everything that makes this world beautiful. Maybe it’s how a state of calm and relaxation allows us to see things differently than when we are hustling and bustling our usual way through life. Whatever the case, we can’t wait to return. 

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Finally, Finally Enough Love

The wait for a rather simple remix album seems worthy of the wait for a proper original studio album, and maybe that’s because we haven’t had a new Madonna release since 2019’s ‘Madame X’. We are definitely due for more, and this is hardly enough. A collection of Madonna’s 50 #1 Dance Chart hits (a record-breaker for any artist in any single category), ‘Finally Enough Love’ encompasses everything from ‘Holiday’ to ‘I Don’t Search I Find’, a lyric from the latter giving title to this opus (which could also be considered as GHV4?) It comes out, in its full incarnation, tomorrow. While I put this on my Amazon Wish List, the days of me eagerly waiting for and instantly going out to purchase a physical format of the latest Madonna release are long gone. That said, there’s always a bit of magic in the air when Madonna does anything, even if it’s a re-issue of songs that every true fan already owns. Here’s looking forward to the next musical chapter, and may it come sooner rather than later.

The track listing of the entry compilation is as follows, and for those we have already chronicled in the Madonna Timeline, click on the title for the link:

1.    “Holiday” (7” Version) 
2.    “Like A Virgin” (7” Version)
3.    “Material Girl” (7” Version)
4.    “Into The Groove” (You Can Dance Remix Edit)
5.    “Open Your Heart” (Video Version) 
6.    “Physical Attraction” (You Can Dance Remix Edit)
7.    “Everybody” (You Can Dance Remix Edit) 
8.    “Like A Prayer” (Remix/Edit)
9.    “Express Yourself” (Remix/Edit)
10.    “Keep It Together” (Alternate Single Remix) 
11.    “Vogue” (Single Version) 
12.    “Justify My Love” (Orbit Edit)
13.    “Erotica” (Underground Club Mix)
14.    “Deeper And Deeper” (David’s Radio Edit) 
15.    “Fever” (Radio Edit) 
16.    “Secret” (Junior’s Luscious Single Mix)
17.    “Bedtime Story” (Junior’s Single Mix)
18.    “Don’t Cry For Me Argentina” (Miami Mix Edit)
19.    “Frozen” (Extended Club Mix Edit)
20.    “Ray Of Light” (Sasha Ultra Violet Mix Edit) 
21.    “Nothing Really Matters” (Club 69 Radio Mix) 
22.    “Beautiful Stranger” (Calderone Radio Mix)
23.    “American Pie” (Richard ‘Humpty’ Vission Radio Mix) 
24.    “Music” (Deep Dish Dot Com Radio Edit)
25.    “Don’t Tell Me” (Thunderpuss Video Remix) 
26.    “What It Feels Like For A Girl” (Above And Beyond Club Radio Edit)
27.    “Impressive Instant” (Peter Rauhofer’s Universal Radio Mixshow Mix) 
28.    “Die Another Day” (Deepsky Radio Edit) 
29.    “American Life” (Felix Da Housecat’s Devin Dazzle Edit) 
30.    “Hollywood” (Calderone & Quayle Edit) 
31.    “Me Against The Music” (Peter Rauhofer Radio Mix)  – Britney Spears feat. Madonna
32.    “Nothing Fails” (Tracy Young’s Underground Radio Edit) 
33.    “Love Profusion” (Ralphi Rosario House Vocal Edit) 
34.    “Hung Up” (SDP Extended Vocal Edit)
35.    “Sorry” (PSB Maxi Mix Edit) 
36.    “Get Together” (Jacques Lu Cont Vocal Edit) 
37.    “Jump” (Axwell Remix Edit)
38.    “4 Minutes” (Bob Sinclar Space Funk Edit)  – feat. Justin Timberlake & Timbaland
39.    “Give It 2 Me” (Eddie Amador Club 5 Edit) 
40.    “Celebration” (Benny Benassi Remix Edit)
41.    “Give Me All Your Luvin’” (Party Rock Remix) – feat. LMFAO & Nicki Minaj
42.    “Girl Gone Wild” (Avicii’s UMF Mix)
43.    “Turn Up The Radio” (Offer Nissim Remix Edit) 
44.    “Living For Love” (Offer Nissim Promo Mix) 
45.    “Ghosttown” (Dirty Pop Intro Remix)
46.    “Bitch I’m Madonna” (Sander Kleinenberg Video Edit)  – feat. Nicki Minaj
47.    “Medellín” (Offer Nissim Madame X In The Sphinx Mix) – Madonna and Maluma
48.    “I Rise” (Tracy Young’s Pride Intro Radio Remix)
49.    “Crave” (Tracy Young Dangerous Remix) – feat. Swae Lee
50.    “I Don’t Search I Find” (Honey Dijon Radio Mix)

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August Adventures with the Twins

They may be on the verge of turning into teenagers, but my niece and nephew still have a bit of childhood left to experience, so whenever we have an opportunity to have them over, we take it, hoping to make the most of these dwindling days. So it was that we hosted them for an overnight a couple of weeks ago, which we began with a steak dinner by Andy, and an excursion to the movie theater to take in ‘Where the Crawdads Sing’ – a movie choice they agreed upon without the customary hours of debate and argument and compromise and concession, and one that I hesitantly agreed to when they said they were old enough to see it. I suppose they are, and that will take its own getting used to.

The next day we rose early to head West. Having taken the day off from work, I indulged in a rare, and welcome, breakfast at a local diner. This tradition with the twins is one of the simplest and most fun ways to pass a morning – we’ve been doing it for years, starting when they were just old enough to dine out. I still remember them choosing a waffle with ice cream, and their big smiles over the plates when they arrived. That was way back after their first sleepover with us. A lot of time has passed since then. 

On this day we were headed to Sharon Springs for a drive through the country, a stop at the Beckman 1802 Mercantile, and whatever other adventures the remaining time together held. 

I made the twins pose in front of the American Hotel, where Andy and I had so thoroughly enjoyed a meal and stay far too many years ago (we are overdue for another). We then walked down the short stretch of Main Street, stopping at a couple of soap stores, perusing a fascinating gift shop that stretched out room after room, and finally reaching our destination all too quickly.  When we hopped back in the car, I saw that we were only a few minutes from Canajoharie, and the memory of a visit to Wintergreen Park as a kid came flooding back. I decided to put that into the GPS and see if I could bring us all back to a place in time that provided one of the most fun excursions of my childhood. 

The winding roads brought us to the park, which was smaller and much more manageable than I remember it – childhood memory having a way of making things much more spectacular and magnificent than they might otherwise be. Even so, there was something majestic about this space, and the faces of the twins reassured me that it still held that magic. 

We must have been right around the twins’ age when my Mom first took us here. I vividly recalled the stretch of stream where a very softly graded waterslide was carved naturally into the rock. This stretch of stone was made slippery by algae and water weeds, and my brother and I had taken dozens of trips down its length, hurrying back to the beginning over and over, each slide an adventure in itself. That day expanded in memory, and I did my best to tell the twins about it, vowing to bring them back when they could take off their shoes and try it. Today we were due back in Amsterdam in a few hours, so we took one last glance at this beautiful spot, then made the long trek home. 

Not yet wanting to break the spell of such a good visit, we stopped for a sushi dinner, and I gave the twins their first Koto Experience. They stuck to their starter staples of California and spicy tuna rolls, but when my tray of specialty rolls arrived, their jaws dropped and they sampled new items that would expand their palette, bravely pushing into a world of eel and lobster and things they never even dreamed existed in such delicious form. We will go back to try something new, or perhaps be more daring on an upcoming trip to Boston. 

As for this summer visit, it ended with me dropping off the twins at their home, and getting another glimpse of their new baby brother Jaxon

The world keeps turning…

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Dazzler of the Day: Kevin Aviance

Appearing on the recent release of brilliance that is Beyoncé’s ‘Renaissance’ album, Kevin Aviance brings their own brand of fabulousness to everything they do, and sometimes that’s simply being a living and breathing work of art. Today Aviance earns the not-so-coveted Dazzler of the Day honor, thanks to his place in gay history, and shining like a sparkling gem in New York City’s tiara of nightlife. 

“WERK. FIERCE. OVAH. Aviance!”

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Fading Remnants of a Super Moon

The fading remnants of a supermoon hung in the air as our dinner party broke up at almost 2 AM. Andy and I saw our guests to their car, and looked up to the sky, where this scene played brilliantly out. I believe this was the Sturgeon Moon, another gift of August (which has been exceptionally kind to us thus far). It brought to mind a Matthew Sweet song that saw me through a few tricky college years, back when I didn’t quite know who I was, back when I couldn’t quite face who I was

There’s a smog moon, in the amber sky, wavering and burning like a golden lie.
I fell so far, I didn’t think I’d make it back
We are all made, as an afterthought,
Destined to believe that we are what we are not
I’m afraid, but I don’t need to tell you that…

Those August moons of my youth crossed overhead, exploding in their light – that light that was always so vital in the darkness of an August night. For several reasons, an August night too often feels darker than any winter night – a strange phenomenon in the season of sun – and one that is a small price to pay for the glories of summer we are otherwise granted. We let the dark nights go, sweating and worrying through them, and if we’re lucky enough to see the morning, we forget how dark they were. 

There’s a smog moon coming I can always feel it
The cartoon trees cannot conceal it
When it’s high up in the sky, it almost looks like it is white
When it’s high up in the sky, it almost looks like…

It is told by those who tell such things that this Sturgeon Moon is to be the last of the Super Moons this year. Did we channel all the good energy and dispel the bad? Did we soak in its power and drink in all of the proverbial moonshine? Full moons are usually troublesome, but there are some who believe we simply need to harness their energy the right way. I don’t think I’ve found the right way just yet, even though decades have passed since I first heard this beautiful song. 

There’s a lost man, with a bitter soul, Only for a moment,
Did life make him whole
And while he was, he thought he was invincible
There’s a smog moon coming I can always feel it
The cartoon trees cannot conceal it
When it’s high up in the sky, it almost looks like it is white
When it’s high up in the sky, it almost looks like it is white

The song memory brings me back to being in Boston. On certain nights, at certain times of the year, the moon hangs in a specific space in the sky. It shines in through the bedroom window, and just kisses the foot of the bed. Once upon a time, unknowing people believed being bathed in moonlight could be the cause of such things as lunacy (from the root ‘luna’ meaning moon). I always flirted with disaster that way, seeking out the moon bath whenever I could, glad to have its reflected echo of sunlight in the middle of a dark night. 

They’re not your words, but you’re reciting the lines
You don’t mean a thing, but you exist in their minds
How does it feel, when they have turned out the lights?
‘Cause you know they sooner would get rid of you, than fight.

On those nights, when the moon peeked in and invited me out, I tentatively slipped a toe into its light, then a foot, then a leg and a thigh… we danced, the moon and I, and whether it was a dance with the devil or an angel, I only know it made me dizzy and exhilarated and defeated – always defeated – by its power and might and whatever secrets it saw – the very secrets that I bared and revealed beneath its intoxicating light. My college years were cloaked in such secrets, buried in silent screams, and only brought to light in a song like this. 

And the dark night, has the strongest pull
We both know that staying young, can take its toll
Are you afraid of finding out you’re over that

Matthew Sweet sang to my younger self, when no one else could touch or reach me, and like a lullaby it was comfort and consolation. When I was 23, all I wanted was my 46-year-old future-self to reveal the secrets to all the questions and doubts and worries I had. Now that I’m that future-self, I find I have less knowledge and understanding than I did then, when not knowing was its own sort of wisdom. It feels like I’m going backward, and perhaps that’s the way it should be – cresting over the hump of middle-age and returning to that happier place of not knowing or understanding things, but simply being at peace with them. Finding the happiness where you can find it, taking pleasure and joy when and where they arrive rather than trying to force or create them. I like that view now. I like the not knowing.

And I like the moon.

There’s a smog moon coming I can always feel it
The cartoon trees cannot conceal it
When it’s high up in the sky, it almost looks like it is white
When it’s high up in the sky, it almost looks like it is white
When it’s high up in the sky, it almost looks like it is white
When it’s high up in the sky, it almost looks like…

 

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Dazzler of the Day: Katie Porter

Her Twitter profile says it all, and so much better than I ever could: “Minivan-driving single mom, law professor, consumer advocate ~ Usually carrying a whiteboard, always bringing the receipts”. This is US Representative Katie Porter, making her debut as Dazzler of the Day in a long-overdue honor for all her hard work for this great country. You’ve probably seen clips of her taking assholes to task for being, well, uncaring assholes who don’t give a shit about anyone other than themselves. She brings the receipts every time, and fights for the average American just trying to support their family. She knows how to do it, because she lives and practices everything she preaches. Check out her site here: https://porter.house.gov.

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Madonna’s Birthday

Holiday, celebration, come together in every nation!

Our Queen Pop Icon Goddess Madonna celebrates her birthday today, and so we celebrate her legacy and body of work, just as she is about to release another greatest hits collection – this of her 50 #1 dance songs (yes, she’s had 50 #1 songs on the dance chart, far and away more than anyone else in the world, living or dead, and the most any single artist has amassed on any single chart). She’s celebrating in Italy this year, and though it’s been a bit of a rocky go of it over the past year (she’s had a break-up, been attacked by fans and non-fans alike for her plastic surgery and looks, and made a few questionable moves on social media) she seems to be plotting the next main Madonna event. Her appearance at Gay Pride back in June was epic and reminded everyone who the fuck she was, and always has been. 

My favorite Madonna songs shift and undulate, like the charts she once ruled. Depending on the season or the mood, certain songs come back into focus, while others fade more obscurely into the past. My top three, however, have remained static and in place for the better part of two decades. I’ll post the links here, in honor of the day:

3. ‘Vogue‘ ~ She gave good face.

2. ‘Like A Prayer‘ ~ She wanted to take us there.

1. ‘Drowned World: Substitute for Love‘ ~ She showed us her religion. 

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Touching Me, Touching You

Water lapping at the edges of the pool and sun lapping at the edge of a shade tree. 

A fun and funky pop song rife for a summer playlist. 

Vision hazy from chlorine, water, and sunlight. 

A summer’s day, perfect for being nothing more or less than a summer’s day

And the albatross of our own myths and histories, tethered to our necks, even in the happiest light.

You think you’re better, you’re better than me
You blow me off as history
To avoid conversation, you’re ignoring me…

When you’ve had enough and you need somebody to know
Well, you’re looking tough but you need a way to let it go
Come on now, what’s a boy s’posed to do
When I can’t seem to leave you alone
Touching me, touching you

Summer is not the time to get too deep. There will be time enough for that in the fall. For now, a sunny song and a water dance. Lose your illusion, lose your inhibition, lose your swimsuit… 

For fear of losing, losing your way
You stop and listen to the things that they say
To avoid confrontation, you walk away…
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Dazzler of the Day: John Fetterman

Today is his birthday, so this Dazzler of the Day is being celebrated on multiple fronts, the first of which is his heated race for Senate in Pennsylvania. Currently the Lt. Governor of Pennsylvania, John Fetterman is running against some GOP quack not worth mentioning. Honestly, at this point, anyone who doesn’t vote blue this year is anti-American. The Democrats have been developing and delivering policies that benefit all of us; the official Republican Party is anti-marriage-equality, anti-choice, and anti-environment. Here’s hoping Fetterman pulls out a win for the people of Pennsylvania – the other option is terrifying. As it’s also his birthday today, a donation to his campaign would be a perfect gift. Check out his website here: https://johnfetterman.com.

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The August Place to Be (For A Recap)

August continues her stretch of glory, with temperatures that have cooled down slightly, and blessedly, because as much as we love summer, a heatwave has its limits. This last week was glorious – low 80’s, lower humidity, and just as much sun. May we make this a habit through the end of the year… on with the weekly recap.

Downtown Albany was on floral fire.

The annual under-appreciated hosta post, to be repeated until we all appreciate the hosta. 

There simply wasn’t enough time to stop this unpretty mess from happening. I tried. I really tried. The heat was just too much.

A fantastical ball scene, for those of us who love a good ball or two. 

When Sharon shines she truly shines, and Sharon was shining this week

The great cherry tomato harvest continues in earnest. 

Unfiltered glory of the morning. It’s that time of the year, whether we like it or not. 

A visitor all abuzz, reaching the uppermost heights of the garden, where the sunny orbs of the cup plant kiss the sunny orb of the sun. 

In another section of sky, a peek of a rainbow, a promise of forgiveness, a piece of pretty. 

Looking back, toga-style

Happy Gay Uncles Day (times three)!!!

The lone Dazzler of the Day was Robin De Jesus, and he was dazzling enough for all the days. 

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Happy Gay Uncles Day!

Yes, this is a real thing, and you have probably forgotten to get me the gifts I so richly deserve, so hurry up and head to my Amazon Wish List to rectify the situation immediately. (My birthday is also coming up, so purchase accordingly.) As for Gay Uncles Day, it’s more of an amusement than anything else – I get enough joy out of seeing my niece and nephews that I don’t need a special day to commemorate my role as Guncle. That said, who am I to deny anyone the chance to send gifts on the second Sunday in August?

Recently, the twins asked whether I ever held them both in my arms at the same time – we were discussing how small Jaxon was and whether they were ever so small. I have several photos of me holding them both, but I think this is one of the last times I was able to physically do so. We won’t be recreating this anytime soon or later, unless I want a broken back. 

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The Looking Back

Seldom do I venture into the deep look back, the preference for nostalgia, the idea of recapturing one’s youth – choosing instead to gaze steadfastly and intently forward, to everything that is ahead and to come. Looking back slows the mental momentum required to keep going. Some days, momentum is all I have to muster. 

Such was the case the other night as I was beginning the promotional planning for the 20th anniversary of this wacky website next year. I found myself lost in figuring out how to encapsulate two decades of life, and a life often-well-documented. That’s a long stretch of time, and part of me wanted to chuck it all and start completely over, the way I did in the early days of this site. 

Now, there are too many archives and memories – and while there was a time when all I needed for memories was to make them, today I need documentation and visual aids to help with keeping them. Looking back is an arduous task sometimes, and we’ve only just begun… 

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A Sign in the Sky

“Why are there so many songs about rainbows, and what’s on the other side?”

Whenever I see a rainbow – or even the hint of a rainbow as seen in the sky here – I think of this song, and my heart feels a little fuller. Fuller from happiness, fuller from hope, and fuller, yes, from a tinge of sadness. It happened as I was making a few errands last week. Picking up some items for the twins and our next adventure, I was pulling into a parking lot (the sky is always best seen from a parking lot) when I spied this little rainbow peeking through the clouds. The day had been wild with storms and uncertainty, the kind of atmospheric mayhem that summer sometimes unleashes after days of heat and humidity. An unsettled atmosphere always unsettles the heart, and the rainbow has traditionally been portrayed as the balm at the end of it all. 

It reminds me of an August day on which I was traveling the New York State Thruway in the year of the Royal Rainbow World Tour – 1997. I finished up the last few stops and sailed along as a magnificent rainbow took the remaining rain and clouds and produced a visage of beauty. It spanned the horizon in front of me, stunning in its breadth and intensity, and I took it as an omen that I was exactly where I supposed to be. That doesn’t happen often in life, particularly in the life of what was then a newly-turned-22-year-old just barely embarking upon his life’s journey, but I felt it. That rainbow reached around and framed the vision of my future. I had no idea where I was going, but I throttled ahead without looking back, ever reaching for the rainbow that was elusively ahead of me that day, and every day since. 

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A Visitor All Abuzz

A visitor all abuzz lands on the central crown of a Helianthus flower, soaking in the sun and the pollen and nectar. It is the epitome of a summer scene, repeated countless times in our backyard as our cup plants and perennial sunflowers draw in the birds and bees and butterflies, all happily going about their pollinating business. 

These flowers are keeping the summer garden going strong, but I sense they are cresting, and the gradual decline in blooms and exuberance is about to begin, signaling the slow slide to fall. We’re not quite ready for that, as it’s been such a glorious summer, but we are also powerless against time. Our only recourse is to soak in every moment and be as present as possible when the sun is shining and the bees are buzzing. 

Enjoy your weekend, friend. 

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Unfiltered Glory of the Morning

Not many people go online unfiltered anymore, but plants don’t have such vanity issues, so this is a completely unfiltered pair of photos of a simple morning glory. I say simple, but it’s stunning in its hue and shades, and the starlike central design that almost feels like it’s imagined. Nature usually only allows them the morning in which to bloom and shine, but now and then an overcast day will elongate their glory. We are in no mood to hasten summer along, so any extension of its spell is appreciated, especially at the start of a weekend. 

Happy Friday! 

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