Author Archives: Alan Ilagan

The Perennial Post

One of our unheralded performers, despite years of neglect (I’ve often forgotten about it completely until it sends out this balloon signal) is the balloon flower seen here. It reliably sends up a single unremarkable stalk of green on the late side of spring. By the time it appears, most other plants have filled in and hidden it from notice. 

Then in July, and quite consistently, it sends up a bloom or two, presaged by the balloon bud you will see below. It’s an exquisite pattern that I’ve come to rely on, even if I don’t give it the attention, care-wise, that it deserves. Every year I promise to do better, and every year I fail to remember. 

Still it blooms, generously providing this mid-season beauty even when we don’t always deserve it. There’s a lesson of grace in that, and it’s one that I’m trying to learn. Bloom – no matter how badly you are ignored or treated – just bloom. 

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Recruiting Officers and Rangers

Living in a law enforcement household has given me a glimpse into how challenging, important, and rewarding such service can be. While Andy retired many years ago, he’s maintained contact and friendships with those he once worked with, and I’ve seen the loyalty, care, and value of those relationships – and it’s something that results from being passionate about your job, and sharing that commitment with others. 

The agency where I currently work – the New York State Department of Environmental Conservation – is seeking out applicants for our Forest Ranger and Environmental Conservation Police Officer positions. They recently revised the qualifications, so if you’ve shied away from this exam in the past give it a fresh look and see if you or anyone you know would qualify and be interested in pursuing these vital positions. This is the link to the exam announcement

In order to truly represent the interests and concerns of all New Yorkers, we are seeking a broad and diverse candidate field. Our Governor has also initiated a ’30 by 30′ goal, which aims to expand the number of women in law enforcement to 30% of the total by the year 2030. If you or someone you know has what it takes to rise to the challenge, and if they want to make a difference while supporting our mission of Environmental Conservation, I encourage you to apply. Please note that the deadline to apply is quickly approaching – August 3, 2022.

(Feel free to reach out to me with any questions as well – it just so happens that I administer the HR side of Law Enforcement and Forest Protection at our agency, but don’t let that stop you!)

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Little Bits of Summer

A little post.

A little plant.

A little summer

Little joys that, taken together, amount to so much more. 

Appreciate all the little in the world. 

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Itty Bitty Blooms

These little flowers were trailing out of a potted geranium that my Mom planted this year, and together they create happy duet of color, form, and prettiness. Despite the skewed perspective of these close-up shots, they are actually quite small in size, making up for it by number and sprawl. 

The whimsy of a container planting is found in its demand to be seen at close-range. It beckons the viewer closer, as if it were going to share some delicious secret. 

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The Meditation Pusher

When Chris visited last week, I showed him how to do some ocean breathing, and rather than listening and paying attention, he chose to take a video of me mid-breath. Where once I would have minded, I chose instead to laugh it off, as my repeated encouragement for him to try daily meditation has thus far been left with less than a shrug. Andy mentioned that meditation is a personal thing, and it’s true that what works for one person may not work for another. And when you have a mind as distracted, unfocused, and racing as most of us do these days, well, no form of meditation may work, especially when the practitioner wants instant change and immediate gratification. My experience with meditation is that the biggest key to successfully implementing it as a part of your life is to be consistent, be organized, and be absolutely dedicated to it, even if you don’t notice a change right away. Not everyone can do that, and I’m not an expert on how to reach people. 

To his credit, after a lengthy night swim and some quiet talk, he gave it a shot for a few minutes, and he said it seemed to work better than previous attempts because he was already in a calm space. Here’s hoping he can work it into his daily life, as the ones who seem to likely benefit the most from meditation often find it hardest to do. That’s a tricky conundrum comprising a difficult life. 

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Cooled by Calamansi

The recipe for this alcohol-free Calamansi Cooler may be found here – and feel free to vary and veer off in your direction, either by adding some alcohol or softening the tartness of the citrus with some fancy simple syrup. It’s summer, and the living should be easy. 

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Vertranquility

Perhaps no other plant produces quite the sensation of calm and tranquility than the fern does. With their graceful arching fronds, and often-intricately-divided leaves that look more like lace than some spore-sown terrestrial being, ferns run the gamut from tiny and delicate to towering and awe-inspiring. For our gardens here in upstate New York, ferns provide a varied and constantly undulating form that adds elegance and grace to any setting. 

With the exception of the potted Kimberly ferns that we replace each year, all of our ferns are winter-hardy, surviving the brutality of a Zone 5 snow and ice laden landscape, exhibiting a durability that belies their fine form. A beauty that’s also a brute – that’s my kind of plant

Aside from their hardiness, I grow ferns for the peaceful countenance they give the garden. Whether it’s the five-finger Maidenhair fern, with her stunning black stems and kelly green matte leaflets fluttering in the slightest breeze, or the dramatic ostrich fern, rising to four feet of bright chartreuse brilliance when its feet are kept wet and its fiddleheads unfurl to their full height, or the magnificent Japanese painted fern, which lives up to and beyond its name with some spectacular foliage that looks positively-painted-on by some genius alchemist of color, our fern collection is a way of keeping things cool when summer heat threatens to overwhelm.

In certain summer situations, simply arming the landscape with scenes of serenity can create the illusion of calm that ultimately lends a cooling effect to those present. That’s the real power of the fern, and we have it in plenty. 

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A Visit from the Birthday Boy

My ancient, old friend Chris graced us with a visit last week, just a few days prior to his birthday, so this is my small way of thanking him for stopping in, as well as wishing him a prosperous and healthy year ahead. We go way, way, way, way back, so far that I barely recognize the dark-haired gents we were in those early twenty-something years. Such a rich and layered history of friendship affords us a security and safety in one another’s company, more akin to brotherhood than the casual way friendship is tossed around these days. And while it took us over a quarter of a century to figure out the formula, it appears our perfect time together is roughly a day and a half. (According to Suzie, that’s cumulative time, so if we spread it out over a few days, any visit can be quite enjoyable.) Happy birthday, buddy – here’s to many more years of fun and adventure! 

PS – You left the book I gave you in the attic, so you’ll have to come back again soon. Unless you did it on purpose, in which case you don’t deserve it. In peace & divinity! #blessed 

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A Gloriously Hazy Recap

Having just returned from an enchanting couple of days in Boston and Provincetown – including a stay at one of the famed dune shacks, I am in no mood to return to a week of work, so I will extend this calm and tranquil vacation feeling for as long as possible, retaining the balmy relaxed air of sunshine and sea in everything I do during the week. Mind over matter… and on with the recap. 

Express yourself, don’t repress yourself.

A summer day with Dad.

A pretty imposter.

Get a gander at this weed.

A pair of pinks going to battle. 

A baby bunny grows up.

My husband the cop.

Summer night tranquility.

California.

Our lone Dazzler of the Day was more than worthy of standing alone ~ Cynthia Erivo. 

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California

I need to persuade people to visit one of the more touristed places on earth.

You write this one, I’ll edit yours. 

{Laughter.}

I’m about to…

Dude, I’m so relaxed.

Power of the pool and then meditation and you want me to write a fucking blog post? I’m done with work. 

I’m done. 

What did you write so far.

I hear typing.

Hmmm.

Let’s just free-associate.

Let’s just talk first. 

Do you want to know about the landscape, the people, the vibe?

Why are you typing?

This isn’t genius, this is stupid.

Are you going to write that down too?

Macaroni salad.

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Summer Night Tranquility

Wrinkly fingers.

Saved 25 June bugs from uncertain demise. 

Revealed the stories of how you almost died in the Audi. 

It was a lovely meal – you could describe the meal. The Calamansi cooler. A visit from Suzie. Perfect weather. 

In no particular order.

Great chicken.

Quinoa salad.

Meditated.

People will be mesmerized by this. 

Like really good macaroni salad. 

(This post was written by a guest of honor who shall remain nameless.)

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My Husband the Cop

There are good cops and there are bad cops, and all sorts of in-between. There are also systemic problems that run through police culture, and have been part of that very system for centuries. This post isn’t going to offer any solutions or recommendations on any of that because I simply don’t have the answers. I do, however, have a husband who is a retired cop, and from all that I have heard and know, he was a pretty good one. 

Andy started off as a volunteer firefighter (coming from a long line of firefighters in his family, including his grandfather who was one of the founders of the Guilderland Fire Department, and the last living charter member at one point), then became a dispatcher and volunteer paramedic, before finally taking a job as a police officer, where he would have remained were it not for an unfortunate injury that cut it all short years before I met him. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I had met him when he was an officer. I don’t know if I could have lived that life, and as a police officer he probably could not have handled mine; he once made it clear that if I ever broke the law he wouldn’t have been an alibi. (Like if I had to murder someone and it wasn’t necessarily self-defense – a question I may have asked on our second date.)

To do all of those things – firefighter, dispatcher, paramedic, police officer – requires someone with a strong heart and an unyielding belief in justice and helping people. It demands a fortitude built on more than self-gratification, and it requires a desire to help everyone in need. Not everyone can or should take up such a life, and sometimes the best would-be-officers are those who know enough not to pursue the career if they are not cut out for it. There’s no shame in that either, as I happily count myself as one of them. (Not that I’d ever even contemplated such a career.) 

But for those that do feel such a calling, for those who still want to make a difference, and to perhaps work from the inside to improve and change a system that admittedly needs some work, there are a few exams being given in New York State, including two that are housed in my own agency, the Department of Environmental Conservation. The exam announcements for our Environmental Conservation Police Officer and Forest Ranger titles are currently up and open for applications (until August 3, 2022) and they are hoping to cull a diverse and broad candidate field, so if you or anyone you know may be interested, please visit this Civil Service webpage for further details and information

As for my husband Andy, the photograph below was taken during his dispatcher days – a springboard for many an officer – and I think we need to take a moment to appreciate how cute he was, even in the requisite police mustache of the 80’s. (Also, respect the landline.)

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A Baby Bunny Grows Up

This little rabbit has been growing at a quick pace, chomping on any and every plant in its path, but happily keeping mostly to the grass, which could use a trim anyway. While we typically shoo these away – they can do some significant damage to garden plants and vegetables – this year the baby was too cute to scare off, so we’ve been allowing it a fair share of petunias and sweet potato vines in exchange for poses like this. 

Such is the evolution of my gardening parameters – an easing of the strict no-rabbits rule that once dominated the area. The heart grows softer with age in some respects, and baby bunnies are part of that respect. Now if a groundhog starts coming by again, that will be a different story with an unhappier ending… 

 

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A Pair of Pinks in Battle

My gardening inspiration Lee Bailey had an interesting tale of the two plants pictured here – a foxglove and a delphinium. He wrote that for years growing up in the south, all he wanted to grow were delphiniums, but they never made it through those hot summers. As soon as he moved to Bridgehampton, New York he immediately planted a few delphinium plants, which quickly cowered and faded before the seaside winds and rain. He tried again, to no avail. 

Seeking a strong vertical accent, he turned to foxgloves, and though he initially considered them a mere substitute, he came to love them and their whimsically-unreliable biennial growing pattern. It was one of the best group of lessons I learned from him – to take a disappointment and turn it around, to try out something similar if what you originally wanted didn’t work out perfectly, and to compromise and be willing to bend when nature refused to go along with your well-laid-out plans. Such garden lessons were valuable for other aspects of life too. 

When I was at the garden center looking for new inspiration, I came upon these two pink plants – one foxglove and one delphinium, and I was reminded of Mr. Bailey’s words of wisdom. 

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Dazzler of the Day: Cynthia Erivo

One letter away from being an EGOT recipient, Cynthia Erivo has already earned an Emmy, a Grammy, and a Tony Award. She will appear as complex heroine Elphaba in the double-film version of ‘Wicked’ (next to Ariana Grande’s Galinda), and I can’t wait to see her fly. This marks a long overdue crowning as Dazzler of the Day, which egregiously isn’t considered part of the EGOT quartet. 

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